Day 382 – Day 383

Day 382 – 19 April 2020

I had a pretty terrible sleep and didn’t really want to participate in Sunday. I wasn’t going to let my friend down again though, so I logged in WoW for a morning of mythical goodness. Luckily we didn’t do anything too hard so I got to feel pretty chill. Wifey even joined us for some dungeons which was great. She was amazing, as usual. I wish she would do that with me more often.

I have been feeling a bit flat for the last few days. I want to say that I don’t know why because that’s easier to deal with than knowing why. For the longest time I’ve really only had a couple of people in my life. I haven’t had many ‘friends’. I’m really missing having friends.

A lot of you out there would be feeling what that feels like because of the Covid-19 lockdown. That’s been my every day life for years. The problem with that is I don’t really know how to make friends while still stuck in my little agoraphobia bubble. I find it hard to talk about myself and small talk kind of makes me feel awkward so I don’t know where to start.

Day 383 – 20 April 2020

I had a horrible nights sleep again. I kept having dreams about someone I’m missing which only makes me miss them more. Then Homer decided to wake me at 7 am, 8.30 am and 10 am. Homer really wanted me to be awake today. At 10 am I gave up on trying to sleep grabbed a shower and then got into colouring a Puddles.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him stocking up on fresh produce for the lockdown. Instead of heading to the local supermarket he went down to a local farm to support them on National Ag Day.

arthurpuddles.art.blog

It’s the second week of the ‘It Made Me Smile’ project and I have learned something; I don’t smile every day or at the very least, I’m not aware of all the times I smile. I need to be much more mindful of recording when I do have something that makes me smile. I did manage to get a list together though.

20 April 2020: When hubby and I purposely shouted wrong answers at the TV while watching ‘The Chase – UK’, trying to come up with the funniest answers we could. It was even better when there was a question about musicals and we both shouted ‘Cats’. That was not the right answer.

19 April 2020: When wifey did some mythic dungeons with us AND when hubby got the kitchen almost completely clean.

18 April 2020: When hubby cooked steak for dinner. It was perfect. He’s the best at cooking steak.

17 April 2020: When I spent some time with my friend ‘The Pally’. I don’t know how he can make me laugh even when I don’t feel like it but that is most definitely his superhero power.

16 April 2020: When I got to spend some time with wifey.

15 April 2020: When I watched Fish Mascot Eats Worker. I can’t explain it, you just have to see it. Thanks Youtube for this recommendation.

14 April 2020: When I wrote my latest catch up post. I talked about things I’d learned, Youtube Channels I enjoy and because I hadn’t thought I was going to do it, I felt proud that I got it done (even though I didn’t get it posted.)


Oh, before I got out of bed this morning I watched a handful of Youtube videos. One of them was from Struthless. He made a video called ‘How to Get Motivated During a Crisis’. He gave some really great ideas about getting to things, if that’s what you want to do during this time. He also pointed out that if you don’t want to be productive, that’s cool too. Definitely worth a watch if you need some inspiration.


I will watch it a couple more times this week I’m sure. I need a gentle nudge (forceful shove) to get back into the swing of things. One thing I have done is created an easier ‘Happy List’ to try and get me back on track and keep my overactive imagination focused on more positive things.

  1. Do more than 7 Puddles this week
  2. Start knitting a beanie
  3. Finish knitting one of hubbys gloves
  4. Nap/rest at least 2 hours every day
  5. Workout 2 times
  6. Meditate 3 times
  7. Watercolour paint
  8. Find some new, low carb recipes
  9. Download and use ‘Jazzas Arty Games’
  10. Smile for 10 minutes, for no reason, 5 days

While the weekend hasn’t been the peak of productivity for me, it’s felt more like a normal weekend and I’ve made normal preparations for the week. Wish me luck.

I hope your week is filled with productivity if that’s what you choose or blissful relaxing. No matter what, remember to smile at least once a day. It looks good on you. Take care and stay safe.

Tilly

Day 373 – Day 379

Day 373 – 10 April 2020

I felt great when I woke up. Hubby was home for the Easter break and I enjoyed the idea of having company through the day. I knew I wouldn’t do normal day things, which made me feel a little anxious seeing I’ve not had a ‘normal day’ in a month.

I ended up spending the day playing WoW and enjoying some delicious food that hubby cooked. It was a really relaxing day, mostly. There was one point towards the end of the day when I got way too stressed playing WoW. I knew it was something silly to be getting stressed over but I just couldn’t stop the internal rise of frustration and anger.

I did my best to talk myself down off the emotional ledge, tried to do some ‘meditation’ breathing to get myself calm and it seemed to work. So, what I mean by ‘meditation’ breathing is; often when you’re listening to a meditation guide they will talk you through a breathing in for so many counts, holding your breath, then exhaling for longer than you took in breath. This tells your brain to calm down. While it’s not advised to take ‘deep breaths’ to calm down, the type of breathing I have just explained is very helpful.

I’ve often thought that I don’t breathe the right way and am most likely not getting enough air. As it turns out, I’m pretty on point. I breathe through my nose and those breaths make my belly expand. I exhale through my nose and I don’t make a sound while doing it. This is the best way to breathe.

The area I need to improve on is my posture. I tend to hunch over my computer. My workspace is a coffee table, my work seat is a lounge chair with the back support at a slight reclined angle, so it doesn’t help me sit up straight. The way that I sit could mean that I am not breathing properly and I am putting unnecessary pressure on some organs. I am adding ‘correcting posture’ to my 40 List. I feel this is an important one.

Day 374 – 11 April 2020

After yesterday’s indulgent day, I opted for another. Although, this was a little foolish in hindsight. Even though I was feeling good all day, I didn’t give myself many breaks from a long day of playing WoW and by the late evening my heart rate was up above the average. It wasn’t at alarming or ‘get me to the hospital’ rates but as my heart rate has been residing in the ‘normal for my age group’ range for sometime (before all this nonsense began,) I don’t feel great when it’s not in that range, especially if I’m not working out.

Day 375 – 12 April 2020

When I woke up, my heart rate was still high…and it didn’t come down. I know (thanks to too many recent Google searches) that your heart rate tends to go up in the hours before you wake. It will most likely go up through the day, then start to come down in the evening. Things like the temperature, eating, stress or activity can make it go up.

So if you wake up feeling hot (which I often do because I’m always freezing when I get into bed) it’s likely your heart rate will be higher than the norm. I did some breathing exercises, splashed my face with cold water (another thing I read that can help calm your farm) and stayed in bed. It didn’t come down so I knew that it was going to be another bed day.

I didn’t do my usual mythical Sunday stuff and just stayed in bed all day. By the evening my heart rate had returned to normal. If anything, it was now below my ‘normal.’

Day 376 – 13 April 2020

I didn’t really want to do much today. I just wanted to keep as chill as possible and make sure my heart rate was going okay. I can happily report that it was a normal day for my heart. Hubby and I indulged in a day of Youtube watching. I got a little rest in the afternoon but then stayed up until a normal bedtime. I enjoy feeling normal.

If you need some Youtube inspiration, check out these channels:

How To Cook That
This channel is run by Australian Ann Reardon, with appearances from her husband. Ann has a food science degree and creates amazing desserts that seem impossible BUT she tells you how to make them. There are videos on chocolate work, fixing cake disasters, creating giant chocolate bars, cakes without fondant and more. She also debunks videos from channels like 5 Minute Crafts and So Yummy by testing the ‘life hacks’ and explaining how and why they can’t work.

Chris Klemens
This channel is just a bi-weekly vlog of Chris doing… stuff. He’s over the top but it’s all part of his charm and makes him even more compelling to watch. You will find casual videos like thrift shopping, food shopping, trying fast food, trying 5 minute crafts and a lot filmed while he is high on marijuana (which is legal where he lives.) While it sounds outlandish the one thing I really like about Chris is that he gives back to the community and always dedicates his videos to a ’cause’ or ‘charity’ that is in need of support.

You Suck at Cooking
This channel appears to be demonstrating how to make recipes from the cookbook ‘You Suck at Cooking’ in a comical way. There is some great production value and you can learn lots of new cooking terms like ‘wang jangler’. It’s very lighthearted but still informative.

While I was disappointed that I didn’t get a post up today, I did say that I would talk about my new ‘gratefulness’ project. I first read about this project on the Squirmy and Grubs – Community Posts page.

Shane has been keeping a journal of one thing each day that made him smile. This seemed like such a great idea. So every Monday I will post the previous weeks things that made me smile. I will keep the collection of things that made me smile here; It Made Me Smile.


13 April 2020: When I was in bed resting in the afternoon and Homer dog bounced up onto the bed to give me lots of kisses and then settled down next to me for pats and snuggles. (He never does that in the afternoon.)

12 April 2020: When my heart rate finally came down to a normal level.

11 April 2020: When I heard black beans being called ‘masculine blueberries.’ It was in a cooking video called ‘Panic Fried Black Beans and Rice’ by the You Suck at Cooking Youtube Channel.

10 April 2020: Knowing that hubby would be home with me for the next four days. It’s nice to have company, plus he made delicious bacon and eggs for breakfast.

9 April 2020: When I watched a video of a man rescuing a baby deer that couldn’t walk. He helped it to get better, then returned it to the wild. The deer found its family and a year later it was happy, healthy and still with its family. Check it out here.

8 April 2020: When my friend ‘The Pally’ called me the second I said I hadn’t had the best day.

7 April 2020: When I read the list of things that made Shane smile from the past week, on the Squirmy and Grubs Youtube Channel. He has been keeping a daily log of things that make him smile for the past five years. It was an exercise in conscious gratefulness.


Day 377 – 14 April 2020

My heart rate was normal when I woke up and that made me happy. Although I was still feeling pretty tired so I went back to sleep. I woke up around lunchtime and thought I might try doing some of my day.

I started with a yummy lunch. Then got on to drawing a Puddles. This was a really hard one and once I was done with the rough sketch, I wanted hubby to see it before I inked it, to see if I had gone in the right direction. Of course, hubby was still hours away from getting home from work, so I decided to move onto something else productive.

I wrote this catch up post but obviously didn’t post it because I didn’t have any art-ing to post with it. Seeing they’re very wordy posts at the moment, I feel like I should at least give people the option of just staring at a cute penguin cartoon instead of reading my blah blah. (Any way you choose to support me is wonderful and I appreciate it.)

I finished the afternoon with some French and Norwegian. I even started a new topic in French. I’m sure I should be practising the stuff I already know, seeing I’ve barely done any in the past five weeks but…new stuff, new stuff, new stuff! La voiture est derriere le bus.

I’m really getting the knitting bug back so I think I’m going to start on a beanie for myself for winter AND finally finish the gloves I started last year for hubby. Hubby did point out that seeing football season has been postponed that I still have time to finish them off before he really needs them. He doesn’t want them for winter, no. He wants them for the start of footy season seeing they’re in this footy club colours.

It was a pretty good day. It feels nice to be back doing the life improving things. It’s been a slow start to the year but I AM going to make progress.

Day 378 – 15 April 2020

After four hours sleep, Homer woke me to go out. I struggled to get back to sleep and guess what? I had a high heart rate again. That made me feel stressed because I was looking forward to doing ANYTHING out of bed. So of course, my heart rate remained stubbornly high. The one thing today confirmed is that I need to make sure I’m getting plenty of rest and staying stress free. Two things I’ve struggled with for as long as I can remember.

I stayed in bed for most of the day. By the afternoon I had finally calmed down, relaxed, rested and was feeling back to normal.

Day 379 – 16 April 2020

I woke after about 7 hours sleep and was feeling fine. My heart rate was normal and it continued to be that way all day. I started the day with some casual gaming. After lunch I worked on a Puddles, French and Norwegian. I think I’ve found the ‘recipe’ that I want to use for a beanie knitting project and will start that in the next few days.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him being inspired by Chris Ulmer @ Special Books by Special Kids. Arthur took a plate of fresh strawberries to celebrate National Florida Strawberry Day to his new friends house. Arthur’s new friend, Anna, has Down Syndrome and taught him all about her condition on World Down Syndrome Day.

arthurpuddles.art.blog

For the most part, I should be able to get back to daily posting. I just need to make sure I give myself enough break times and probably (definitely) should work on ‘work’ things first before I spend time playing games. I know I will get back into great and productive habits again.

I hope that you and your families are staying strong and healthy during the Covid crisis. Don’t forget to reach out to those around you to make sure they’re doing okay. Stay safe.

Tilly