Day 339

I got to bed just after midnight and did  HEAL while you SLEEP ★ Your Cells are Listening Guided Meditation Focused on Healing. I got more from it this time but still fell asleep before it ended and barely remembered it this morning. I feel like I’m in less pain though. Maybe it’s working? I ended up waking up late.

I crawled out of bed around 8 am and got to chatting with hubby. We reminisced over some music compilation cassette tapes that we both had when we were teenagers; 100% Hits. It was an Australian compilation series of what was in the charts at the time. It started in 1991 and went for much longer than I thought. I had all of them up to 100% Hits Volume 15. Hubby and I wanted to relive the tunes from our teens so I jumped on Youtube in hope. I got lucky. A user by the name of Darrin Hyde had uploaded a number of them, if not all of them. That’s exactly what we’ll be listening to all weekend.

Once hubby scurried off to work, I worked out. My lower back was feeling yesterdays workout but I pushed through. I did the 30 minute workout in 27 minutes. It was a good effort.

Then it was onto the art-ing. I spent an hour or so trying to edit a background from the Puddles series (redrawing it would have been sooooo much quicker.) Then just as I was getting ready to do the sketching part, my discord messages to wifey stopped going through. So we ended up chatting on voice instead. Five hours later, I had whipped up a Puddles but the day was almost over. I can’t complain though. I love spending time with wifey.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him playing Cereal Waterfall with Douglas Dog. The aim of the game is to pour the milk into the bowl until it creates a waterfall out of the bowl, over the table and into the waiting mouth below. They had so much fun on National Cereal Day.

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By the time wifey had zombie-shuffled off to bed, my day was almost over. I finished with a face full of French and Norwegian. This new French topic is really kicking my booty. I’m not going to give up, of course. I’ll just need a lot more focused practice with French next week.

Tomorrow is the first day of the weekend for hubby, so he’ll have a feet up sort of day. I’ll spend the morning Puddling and the afternoon WoW’ing. I’m not really looking forward to the WoW’ing. I need a Paladin!!! You know who you are.

I hope you have a wonderful weekend whether you are relaxing, being super productive and everything in between. Stay safe.

Tilly

Day 338

I got to bed before midnight again. I’m enjoying this new habit. I did another new meditation guide; Rapid Healing While You Sleep. I enjoyed it but I know I fell asleep long before I should have. That’s okay though, as long as I’m getting sleep. I woke just after 6 am and tried to go back to sleep but tossed and turned until I got up just before 7 am.

I powered through French and Norwegian over a cup of coffee. This was my best day at Norwegian. I got at least 18 out of 20 questions right each time. French on the other hand was horrible. I struggled through the practice and wished I had just continued on my magical Norwegian journey.

When hubby shuffled off to work, I worked out. It was rather humid and I took my sweet time doing the workout. I did it though. YAY!

When it came time to do the art-ing I started with another ‘person’ watercolour. After a couple hours of painting, I had nothing to show. Eep! What was supposed to be a female in the woods, turned into a very 90s looking male… in the woods. As a painting of a 90s male, it was pretty good. I had some good texture on the clothing and the skin was shadowed well.

I still had a lot of paint leftover so I thought I’d try a winter landscape; Watercolour Snow Melt. About half way through I was sorta over the whole painting experience, so I called it done. It didn’t look done. I took a couple of photos and really liked a cropped version of it. There were lots of nice painting elements today but just not a whole piece.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him and Rosie celebrating National Dress in Blue Day. Arthur felt like the Captain of a ship, so they went out on the harbour in a rowboat.

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The art-ing took up the whole day. Although I did manage to get about 45 minutes of singing practice in before hubby got home. It was a pretty good day.

I hope your day has been bright, colourful and filled with all the things you enjoy.

Tilly

Day 336

I got to bed before midnight last night. Woo hoo!! See what I mean about the fact I do the things I should…when there is a list. I added an earlier bedtime to my Happy List and two nights in a row, I’ve had an earlier night. If I was a Sim, my happiness would have increased by at least 2 points. When I went to bed I thought I’d try listening to an 8 hour meditation. It seems after about 45 minutes I turned it off. Earbuds all night was not a good plan.

I woke around 7 am. It was cool and dark which made the morning a little harder to start. Apparently I can’t have it too hot and bright or too cold and dark. I’m like the Goldilocks of mornings. It all has to be just right for me to get into the day. I got through Norwegian before hubby buzzed off to work.

Once hubby had started his day, I officially started mine with a workout. For my Youtube video sidekick I decided to watch some TED talks on child abuse/trauma and how it affects you.

When I was growing up someone said to me that growing up with domestic violence and abuse was like living in a war zone. I never really understood why it would be comparable but after watching; The effect of trauma on the brain and how it affects behaviours by John Rigg, it made more sense. Growing up with abuse leaves you in a constant state of being on alert as people are when they are deployed for war. You’re always waiting for something to happen. My brains response to the abuse I went through is very similar to those that have been to war.

I then made the silly mistake of reading comments except today, it wasn’t so silly. Some of the comments raised some things I didn’t even know were a thing. Like, I’d heard of the ‘Flight or Fight’ response (which John Rigg spoke about in his talk) but apparently there are two other ‘F’ related responses. They are ‘Freeze and Fawn.’ I searched Google to find out the meanings.

  • To fight is to confront the threat aggressively.
  • Flight means you run from the danger.
  • When you freeze, you find yourself unable to move or act against the threat.
  • You may find yourself hiding from the danger. Fawn is the response of complying with the attacker to save yourself.

This really got me confused. When I was watching the Ted talk I could identify with what he was saying about ‘fight or flight’ responses in relation to my own childhood abuse. When I read the meaning of the other two my first thought was they are both ‘flight’ responses. They are just different ways of removing yourself from the situation. Then I pondered more over both meanings and yes, they are separate and I can identify with both responses.

I got to chatting to wifey about it and she did some quick Google searches to find out more about it too. This was the first time she’d heard of the ‘freeze and fawn’ response. She linked me to; Fight Flight Freeze: How To Recognise It And What To Do When It Happens. It was interesting to read that I have physical reactions from each of the categories, simultaneously. My body can’t even work out what is the best response and goes for all of them.

So where to from here? This is a topic I need to learn more about. Thankfully I have the ability to hear the opinions of hundreds of healthcare professionals from around the world. I can see a lot of TED talks in my future. Of course I’ll take each with a grain of salt but I figure it’s a great place to start.

After some great conversation with wifey, I stared some art-ing. For my watercolour I was going to follow a video on Youtube but I didn’t want to waste more time looking for something. I had a search on Unsplash still open with photos of Poland, so I took inspiration from the first one that caught my eye; a couple sitting by a body of water. The one thing that I took away from this practice was that I actually enjoyed painting the people.

Today’s Puddles is a special one. When I first started drawing the penguin character, long before I had even come up with a concept for the Arthur Puddles blog, my good friend ‘The Pally’ was inspired by my art-ing and drew a penguin character of his own. I thought it was fantastic.

When I started putting together the holiday list for the Puddles cartoon, there was a day that I thought would be perfect to use ‘The Pally’s’ penguin sketch. Today is the day. I’m really happy with how this turned out. I drew Arthur digitally over the other penguin. The background was drawn with an ink pen and coloured digitally (as all the Puddles cartoons are now made.)

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him giving Private Penguin a big hug for Hug a G.I day. Douglas dog had been practising how to salute all week. They had a great day at the army base.

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The art-ing took up almost the whole day. I finished the day with some light housework. It was a pretty good day.

I hope your day has been filled with all the things that make you smile.

Tilly

Day 335

I got to bed before midnight last night. Woo hoo!! My phone was almost flat again, so I chose a short meditation guide ; Pain Relief & Healing GUIDED MEDITATION “The Cleansing Pool”. It’s one of my favourites so I definitely didn’t feel like I was missing out. Homer woke me up about 6 minutes before hubby’s alarm would have gone off. It was a pretty good sleep.

I started the day well. Before hubby had gone to work, I’d done French and Norwegian. Soon as he had gone, I worked out and I’m still feeling it. It took me every second of 30 minutes to finish the workout. It’s something I enjoy while I’m doing it but I’m back to struggling through it. Good times.

Once that was done, I was feeling pretty good that I’d started my day well. I dived into Puddles and got that done in about 2 1/2 hours. If I could get the whole process under 2 hours I’d be much happier. This project wasn’t supposed to take up so much of my days.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him celebrating World Wildlife Day with a bunch of his friend. They took a selfie to commemorate the day.

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The afternoon was… disappointing. This bout of depression has really dug its heels in. I haven’t really experienced anything like this for a couple of years. The thing that really set me off today was an ad on Youtube. I had some Youtube videos playing while I was working out which were interrupted by ads. I would normally skip them but I was nowhere near the mouse so I had to watch them.

There was an ad made by ‘Huggies’ about how hard it is parenting in 2020 when everyone is judging you. There were lots of mothers sharing how they felt they weren’t doing a good enough job. Near the end of the ad their kids and partners were interviewed and said how amazing the mums actually are.

Being a parent was the only thing I ever wanted and it’s the one thing that I will never have. That hurt is way too painful today. Even writing about it hours after it happened and I can’t stop the flood of tears. I guess my loneliness is reaching all new levels of lone.

I tired to re-focus my day by trying to find something on Youtube for watercolour practice. I watched about an hour of videos but my indecisiveness was becoming overwhelming so I gave up on the day and went to bed.

Tomorrow is another day and I can only hope that it goes smoother. I hope your day has brought you nothing but happiness. Good luck with all things on your to-do list this week. Take care.

Tilly

Day 323

I went to bed early last night and did GUIDED SLEEP MEDITATION for Healing. I woke a couple of times through the night but it wasn’t a bad sleep. I woke about 6 am and decided to stay up so I could spend the morning with hubby instead of sleeping.

I did French and Norwegian practice before 7 am. It was a great time to practice. There were no distractions and I was getting more right than normal. I can’t imagine getting up that early on purpose to practice though.

Then it was onto art-ing. I can happily say, I did a watercolour. I loosely followed; A Simple Winter Watercolour.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him spoiling Douglas dog for Love Your Pet Day. He gave Douglas a bubble bath in the sunshine and had a surprise bone waiting on his towel.

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Once done with the art-ing I did some housework and a workout. It was a nice way to finish the day.

I hope your day is filled with creativity, happiness and good friends.

Tilly

Day 308

Last night I did Pain Relief & Healing GUIDED MEDITATION “The Cleansing Pool”. I fell asleep before it ended and don’t even remember taking the ear buds out. I have some vague memory of them yanking from my ears when I turned over. It was a good sleep but when Homer dog woke me up, I wasn’t ready to be the day.

I didn’t do much while sipping coffee and when hubby left for work I still couldn’t get started. It was at that point I had to do a workout or go back to bed. I worked out. Well, I half worked out. I got through half of it, felt light headed and went back to bed.

When I woke up the second time, I still felt tired. I’m not sick anymore and I’ve been getting sleep, so why was the sleepy chasing me all day? I reluctantly got to art-ing but I art-ed.

Watercolour felt scary again today. I really don’t know why. So I opted for something I thought would be simple. I sorta made a mess of it. Oh well. I followed (sorta) this video on Youtube; How to Make Tree in Watercolours Easy Demo for Beginners.

For my 10 minute doodle today, I obsessed over as many B words as I could. Balloons seemed too simple. Baboons seemed…. who even knows what a baboon looks like? While I couldn’t decide I picked a time on the clock, picked up my pencil and waited to begin. When the clock ticked over my first thought was BRIDGE. That’s a B word I could draw. Not really. Ugh! I need to add looking at bridges to my to do list. There’s a boat, birds and bodies on half a bridge. Not terrible for 10 minutes. That took the whole time, so no colour today.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him pretending to be a weatherperson for National Weatherperson Day. He made all the signs himself and set it up on the wall in his living room.

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I finished the day with a good French lessons of ‘Shopping’ words and 10 minutes of smiling for no reason. I definitely need the extra smiles.

I hope your day has been filled with creativity and smiles. Happy hump day.

Tilly

Day 302

I got to bed late again last night, still meditated, and woke up late this morning. Hubby had already left before I woke. I have no idea how he ninja’ed out of the house. On a normal day, Homer would have been barking at the window but not today. Homer has been really respectful of my morning sleep-ins.

Because I woke up late and it was hot, I got straight into art-ing. I wanted to try a couple of line and wash watercolours. The first one I attempted was; Pen and Watercolour Wash Buildings Landscape Painting by Saifi Artstuff.

I then tried a small house in a field; Tiny Farm in Line and Wash by Nil Rocha.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him enjoying croissants at La Boulangerie with his friend Rosie and his puppy dog Arthur for National Croissant Day.

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I finished the day with some French practice, housework and half a workout. I started to get light headed during the workout so I had to stop. At least I got some if it done. I think it was just too hot and humid in the house by then.

I hope your day has been filled with happiness and light.

Tilly

Day 301

I went to bed late last night and listened to a 15 minute meditation. I don’t remember which one it was. I fell asleep quickly and had a rather lovely sleep.

I got up just a little after hubby and was pretty ready to start the day after a little complaining to wifey about not wanting to start the day. She gave me a nudge in the right direction.

So when hubby left for work, I worked out!! This is the first time in weeks that I’ve worked out. I took it much slower than normal because I was worried about getting light headed but I didn’t seem to have any problems. It was good getting back into it.

After the workout I had a French practice. It was one of my better ones. I only got a handful of things wrong. Then it was on to the art-ing.

I tried a simple watercolour of popsicles with inspiration from Super Easy Watercolour Popsicle Pattern. I used new paper and it wrinkled. I knew that it wouldn’t be as good as what I had been using but seeing it’s watercolour paper, I thought it’d do a bit better than it did. I’ll use it to practice single items and leave the better paper for landscapes.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him having a nap with his puppy, Douglas, after working on a puzzle for National Puzzle Day. It was hard and they didn’t get far. The snack of choice was corn chips because it’s National Corn Chip day.

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I am a bit late with my Happy List this week but at least I’ve got it done and I’ve already done some things from it. Woo! Go me.

  1. Meditate – 5 days
  2. 10 minute doodle – 5 days
  3. Watercolour – 3 days
  4. Sing – 2 days
  5. Write meal plan
  6. Use face mask – 1 day
  7. Eat breakfast – 4 days
  8. Be in bed before midnight – 3 days
  9. Workout – 5 days
  10. Smile for no reason for 10 minutes – 5 days

I’m pretty happy with today. I got more done than I have been including some cleaning. I hope your day has put a smile on your face. Happy hump day.

Tilly

Day 282

Last night I got to bed on time and I did a new meditation; Guided Sleep Meditation “The Healing Spring” insomnia, relaxation (Guided Healing). I really enjoyed the imagery and found it very relaxing.

Homer dog helped me wake up on time-ish today. I was grateful as it was already too humid and unpleasant. So the first thing I did was worked out. I was pretty slow. The humidity really makes it feel so much harder. I can’t wait until Summer is over.

Even though I got up early, my morning wasn’t a normal work day. Instead of jumping into arts and learning, I spent some time with wifey. With our schedules we don’t get much time together. Her mornings start sometime during my late evening and I’m either eating dinner or tired and ready for bed. Then while she’s relaxing in the evening, I’m trying to get my day started with art-ing and learning. Today was nice. We just chilled and played some WoW.

Today would have been perfect beach weather. Instead of going to the beach, I did a beach watercolour. I had watched; Watercolour Beach Tutorial For Beginners | Easy Watercolour Ideas, a few days ago and was inspired. So I tried it on my own without referencing the video again today. I am pretty happy with how it turned out but I still need to use more water!!

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him appreciating his houseplants because it’s Houseplant Appreciation Day. He loves being surrounded by his interesting and colourful indoor garden.

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After a little aimless staring it was time for French. The timed practice runs were filled with words from the ‘Office’ category. It’s been so long since I’ve worked with these words I was instantly worried I wouldn’t get any right. I surprised myself and had a very good practice run. The words popped back into my head like popcorn!

I finished the day by looking at watercolour videos on Youtube. Every time I browse them I end up with four of five more bookmarked to try at a later date. Hubby will be at work tomorrow, I wonder if I’ll be more productive.

I hope your day has been bright, shiny, creative and filled with smiles.

Tilly

Day 280

I went to bed a little late and did Guided Meditation – Blissful Deep Relaxation. I went back to one that I enjoyed instead of trying to find another new one. I really want one with the sounds of the ocean, healing and relaxing. Not asking for much, right? It was enjoyable and relaxing and I had a pretty okay sleep.

So this morning I worked out the problem with hubby being on vacation. It’s not that he’s distracting, it’s just that our day is not structured. When he goes to work he wakes at 7 am, I usually do too. Now we’ve been sleeping in, I’m not really starting my day until around 10 am, which instantly puts me behind and makes me feel less motivated to get things done. Oops, I used the M word. I have avoided discipline like the plague and that’s my bad. I gotta do better.

Hubby had to pop to the shops so I did my workout. It was humid again and everything in me didn’t want to do it. I pushed myself though and burned through it about 2 minutes quicker.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him practising snorkelling in his bubble bath for National Bubble Bath Day. One day he’ll go snorkelling in the ocean.

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The next step on the creative ladder was a trip to Skillshare. I watched one watercolour lesson but she kept saying that I understood how to do multiple washes, which I do not, and the angle it was filmed at made it very confusing for my poor brain. I didn’t even attempt it. It did make it rather clear that I need some very very basic beginner lessons on the matter.

I then watched Magical Watercolor: Basic Techniques. This is a free class which goes over the basics: Materials, Water and Pigment, Filling, Gradients, Edges, Softening, Textures, Lighting and Colour Mixing. I didn’t test any of the things from the video I just sat there clutching my tray of watercolour paints.

I followed it up with watching a couple of random ‘How To’ videos on Youtube, still clutching my paints, still not painting. I wish it was National Hug Your Paints Day, because then my day would have at least made sense. Tomorrow I WILL watercolour. I said it, so now I have to. Thanks for being there to keep me on track.

The last few days of art-ing have been getting me down so by the afternoon I decided to do something off my happy list…. NAP TIME!! Hooray for a good nap. If you haven’t indulged in a nap this year put it on your to do list. You will thank yourself.

I hope your day has been everything you wanted it to be. Stay strong.

Tilly