Day 358

WordPress has had a makeover. How fresh in a time of crisis. I wish I could have a makeover. I am feeling terrible. I woke just after hubby but stayed in bed. By about 9 am I was feeling ready to go back to sleep. I don’t remember when I went back to sleep but I did.

I woke in the afternoon and really wanted to stay in bed. I should have. I got up and spent a few hours slowly working on a Puddles. It was good in theory but the colour process…oh the colour process. I guess I just didn’t think it through well enough and with all the detail of the bamboo it didn’t come out as clean as I would have liked. I just don’t like it. Let’s not talk about it.

So with the Arthur Puddles cartoon, as you have probably picked up, they are to celebrate a National or International Day. Even though I had a whole lot of time off, I am going to continue with the same theme and still draw the days that have passed. I have been a bit conflicted if I should draw Arthur social distancing and self isolating. He’s a penguin (and a cartoon) so technically he doesn’t really need to. As a sign of solidarity for the crisis (and for future generations that may stumble upon the cartoon) I thought it might be interesting transferring his world to his house. With all that said, I’ll probably keep drawing him doing outside things until the time that Australia went into a semi lock down on the 24th.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him visiting a Giant Panda for National Panda Day to find out if he’s doing okay. Arthur is very caring.

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I am defiantly unhappy today but it is what it is. I very much have things to be thankful for and, I still am. I’m just unhappy. Fingers crossed I’ll get a good sleep tonight.

Oh, you also may have noticed in my update yesterday (or just in the tags for the concise version) that I haven’t mentioned meditation. I haven’t been able to do it. I don’t know why either. I have tried a couple of times but it’s made me feel sick, almost like sea-sick? Maybe not. Not sure I’ve been sea-sick. Whatever it is, it just hasn’t worked for me. Last night I tried to just picture one of the meditation guides I used to listen to and I fell asleep pretty quick. I miss it. That’s not the only thing I’m missing at the moment.

I hope that you are staying happy and healthy. Enjoy the little things because that’s all we have right now. (Takes own advice!)

Tilly

Day 348 – Day 357

The saga began on Day 347 around 10 pm. It was a normal night. I had done my alien post (although I didn’t really feel like writing a post) and I am pretty sure I was playing WoW. Wifey woke up and asked how I was doing. I said that I would probably go to bed soon.

Within a couple of minutes of saying that, I knew I had to get to bed immediately. I hurriedly tried to say goodnight and as I was typing the last few words of my message to her, I had the strangest feeling rush through my body. It felt like all the blood drained to my head, my neck got warm and my heart pounded. I got up, very scared of what was happening, and sat on the bed. I didn’t want to lay down. I was restless.

Hubby thought that I was going to pass out. The things I was describing sounded like things he’d experienced before he had passed out in the past. (It happened to him a handful of times when he was working long days and only getting about 4 hours sleep a night.) I didn’t pass out. The next thought was that I was having a panic attack. My heart rate was very erratic and that lasted about 5 hours. I couldn’t sleep. I was terrified about what was happening. I kept saying to myself if it got worse, I’d go to hospital. I ended up getting to sleep somewhere after 3 am.

Day 348 – 16 March 2020

After a very scary and sleepless night, I spent the day in bed. I slept. That was all I did. I barely drank water, I didn’t eat. I slept.

Day 349 – 17 March 2020

I spent most of the day sleeping. I made some toast for lunch and made an effort to drink more water. I had a small dinner and sat up for a while. That wasn’t pleasant. I kept getting weird head rushes again and my heart rate kept bouncing all over the place. I tried to not panic.

Day 350 – 18 March 2020

After spending two days in bed, my muscles and joints ached. I tried to sleep again but it was getting harder. I was so restless. I wanted to get up but I still didn’t have the energy, so I thought I’d distract myself by watching some stuff on Youtube on my phone.

I found a remarkable Youtube channel; Special Books by Special Kids.

Founded in 2016, SBSK is a 501(c)3 organisation that seeks to normalise the diversity of the human condition under the pillars of honesty, respect, mindfulness, positivity and collaboration. This multi-media movement supports the acceptance and celebration of all members of the neurodiverse/disability community regardless of diagnosis, age, race, religion, income, sexual orientation, gender or gender expression.
-Chris

Taken from the ABOUT page on the SBSK Youtube Channel.

I spent the day watching this channel. I laughed, I cried, I became motivated. The people that Chris meets and the stories he shares are beautiful stories of strength, perseverance, joy, family and the never ending journey for acceptance for all people.

I’ve always thought of myself as a good person. I try and make people feel good, I listen if someone needs that and I’m always ready to give a hug or a smile. Watching these stories really made me want to be a better person. To be more of all those qualities.

Apart from the fact that I didn’t have the energy to get out of bed, it was a really good and encouraging day. I eventually got out of bed when hubby got home but kept getting lightheaded and heart racy. I was finding it much easier to get my heart rate down quicker though so it wasn’t as scary.

Day 351 – 19 March 2020

It was another day of short naps and Youtube videos in bed. I spent a lot of the day watching more videos from the SBSK Channel (I have years of catching up to do) and I watched an episode about an interabled couple. They both had such amazing personalities and upon noticing they had their own Youtube channel, that was my next stop. After watching a few videos from them, I was hooked. Shane has got the best sense of humour. They have recently set up a help fund during the Covid-19 crisis for people with disabilities.

Check out Hannah and Shane’s Channel; Squirmy and Grubs.

Day 352 – 20 March 2020

Even though I hadn’t been feeling as horrible as the beginning of the week, I was still very reluctant to get out of bed while hubby wasn’t home. The only problem with that is it was a 35 degree day and hubby was doing some overtime. It was a long, hot day in bed. I tried to stay distracted with naps and Youtube. Hubby got home around 10 pm and I was ready to get out of bed. It was nice to be up for a couple of hours before a night of nightmares and restlessness.

Day 353 – 21 March 2020

You’ve probably noticed a theme to the week; short naps and Youtube videos. Today was another. It was also another night of nightmares and broken sleep.

Day 354 – 22 March 2020

Hubby had a huge week at work and was exhausted. He slept-in until about 11 am. We didn’t do much with the day. I stared at the TV thankful I wasn’t spending another day in bed. I didn’t have the energy for more than staring though. We watched one of my favourite movies, Deadpool, in the evening and had an early night.

Day 355 – 23 March 2020

We woke up around 10 am and I got up at the same time hubby did. Hubby pottered around the house doing some housework (that I haven’t been able to do for a week, UGH!) He cooked some spaghetti sauce using all our leftover veggies. He also cleaned the cupboards and fridge out so we have some hope of packing away all our extra supplies. I did a little vacuuming and cleaned up one of the neglected side tables. I probably shouldn’t have done that. It was a huge energy drain.

Day 356 – 24 March 2020

I was hoping to get back to something of a normal schedule but I had zero energy. Actually, I think zero energy would have been an acceptable level. I couldn’t get out of bed. I slept most of the day. I got up when hubby got home. I tried to stay still and calm as I ate dinner and watched Deadpool 2. There was only one time I thought I was going to be light headed again but it seemed to pass quickly.

Day 357 – 25 March 2020

After another hard night sleep I woke when hubby did around 7 am. I stayed in bed and messaged wifey. We chatted until around 8.30 am, hubby left for work and I promptly went back to sleep. There was no way I could stay awake.

Homer woke me around 12 pm because he wanted to go out. I made a quick lunch and got back into bed. I returned to Youtube and watched a variety of videos, when I found one about; Advice for people who feel like their art isn’t unique. It actually made me feel better about my journey. This is only my first year on the bus. It’s been a bit of a bumpy journey (especially the last two weeks) but there is still a long way to go.

I was inspired to get back to art-ing and inked a Puddles that I had drawn a few weeks ago and I really should have used a new pen. I never know when is the right time to switch them out. I don’t want to waste them but they get to a point where they don’t make solid lines. Today was that day. I tried to fix it as much as I could in editing but I ran out of energy pretty quickly.

I’m not sure I’ll be bouncing back to a normal schedule just yet. I’m taking each day as it comes. If I’m up to it, then I’ll get things done, if I’m not, then it’ll be a day of bed rest. As soon as I’m feeling better I will get caught up on all the daily Puddles.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him and a few friends reenacting a scene from The Wizard of Oz. He will return to his normal adventures very soon.

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How is the Covid-19 crisis affecting our family?

At the moment, life is running as normal for us. No one has symptoms of the virus, so we’re all pretty confident that none of us have it. (Even though I do have something going on with me.) Because of my agoraphobia, hubby and I have pretty much self quarantined for the last 3 years. Wifey and her mom are much the same. They only go out for things when necessary. So this hasn’t been much of a change for any of us.

As non essential services have been closed in Australia this week, we have started to worry about hubby’s job. He works for a bed store and at this point, they remain open. We are worried that there won’t be enough work for him though if people are self quarantined and not shopping. It’s tough enough living on a single income and we’re not sure what we’ll do if he gets stood down. The Australian government is offering additional help during this time but it’s still a cause of concern.

With our borders shut, as most are, we now have no idea when it’s likely that wifey will be able to come back to Australia. While it doesn’t change our relationship at all, it’s hard not knowing when we’ll get to be together again.

Hubby and I have been stocking up on pantry items over the last few weeks. He’s going to get some frozen veggies tomorrow and then we should be stocked in the event that there is a full shutdown. We should be able to survive three weeks without needing to leave the house.

What can you do to help during the Covid-19 crisis?

  1. Follow the advice of local authorities to self quarantine. That means staying in your home. Don’t visit friends or family members. Also make sure you practice social distancing when you are in public.
  2. Be respectful when stocking up for staying in. In Australian supermarkets we are now limited with how many items we can buy. If that’s not something being done where you are, please take only what you feel is necessary to get you through a few weeks of quarantine.
  3. Reach out to vulnerable people via phone or online. This crisis is causing major isolation which is very hard for a lot of people. Just the simple act of asking ‘Are you okay?’ could make a huge difference in someone’s day.
  4. Think about the positives of staying at home. This is a great time to spring clean, learn some new skills, start a home workout routine or complete that art project you’ve been putting off.

I hope that you, your families and friends are safe, healthy and happy right now. Please follow the advice of your local government and authorities to make sure your community can stay safe and recover as quickly as possible.

Tilly

Day 345

I listened to healing meditation before sleep last night. It was a nice sleep but not enough because Homer dog woke me up early. I tried to get back to sleep but as soon as hubby had jumped in the shower, Homer was waking me up again. Not for any reason, just because he wanted to wake me up. He’s fun like that.

My back isn’t feeling much better and a day of art-ing probably hasn’t helped. I just couldn’t go another day without pulling out the watercolours. I found some inspiration on Youtube; Simple Watercolour Landscape Painting. I watched the whole thing through once, then paused it on the finished version and did what I wanted.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him, Rosie and Douglas dog having some fun ice-skating. They didn’t need skates but they did need their earmuffs to celebrate National Earmuff Day.

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I finished the day with an excellent practice of French and Norwegian. I think it might be getting close to a new topic in each, although I won’t start them both on the same week.

I hope your week has been filled with good health, good friends and an abundance of creativity. Stay safe.

Tilly

Day 340

It was another night of  HEAL while you SLEEP ★ Your Cells are Listening Guided Meditation Focused on Healing for my meditation. I’m really enjoying this guide. I have been sleeping much deeper and feeling a little better when I wake. I slept in! We didn’t get out of bed til after 11 am.

I worked on Puddles for a bit before spending the afternoon doing mythic dungeons in WoW. Whenever I did something victorious in the game, I would whisper, ‘International Women’s Day’. I’m pretty sure that’s how you’re supposed to celebrate it.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him and Douglas dog bringing Rosie some lunch. She was very excited to see them. They were going to spend the day celebrating International Women’s Day but Rosie got called into work. Arthur loved the view from her office.

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I finished the day with French and Norwegian. Not much to report. It was a fair practice.

I hope your weekend is relaxing, fun and you are surrounded by people that make you smile. Stay safe.

Tilly

Day 339

I got to bed just after midnight and did  HEAL while you SLEEP ★ Your Cells are Listening Guided Meditation Focused on Healing. I got more from it this time but still fell asleep before it ended and barely remembered it this morning. I feel like I’m in less pain though. Maybe it’s working? I ended up waking up late.

I crawled out of bed around 8 am and got to chatting with hubby. We reminisced over some music compilation cassette tapes that we both had when we were teenagers; 100% Hits. It was an Australian compilation series of what was in the charts at the time. It started in 1991 and went for much longer than I thought. I had all of them up to 100% Hits Volume 15. Hubby and I wanted to relive the tunes from our teens so I jumped on Youtube in hope. I got lucky. A user by the name of Darrin Hyde had uploaded a number of them, if not all of them. That’s exactly what we’ll be listening to all weekend.

Once hubby scurried off to work, I worked out. My lower back was feeling yesterdays workout but I pushed through. I did the 30 minute workout in 27 minutes. It was a good effort.

Then it was onto the art-ing. I spent an hour or so trying to edit a background from the Puddles series (redrawing it would have been sooooo much quicker.) Then just as I was getting ready to do the sketching part, my discord messages to wifey stopped going through. So we ended up chatting on voice instead. Five hours later, I had whipped up a Puddles but the day was almost over. I can’t complain though. I love spending time with wifey.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him playing Cereal Waterfall with Douglas Dog. The aim of the game is to pour the milk into the bowl until it creates a waterfall out of the bowl, over the table and into the waiting mouth below. They had so much fun on National Cereal Day.

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By the time wifey had zombie-shuffled off to bed, my day was almost over. I finished with a face full of French and Norwegian. This new French topic is really kicking my booty. I’m not going to give up, of course. I’ll just need a lot more focused practice with French next week.

Tomorrow is the first day of the weekend for hubby, so he’ll have a feet up sort of day. I’ll spend the morning Puddling and the afternoon WoW’ing. I’m not really looking forward to the WoW’ing. I need a Paladin!!! You know who you are.

I hope you have a wonderful weekend whether you are relaxing, being super productive and everything in between. Stay safe.

Tilly

Day 337

I tried a meditation guide made by Progressive Hypnosis; HEAL while you SLEEP ★ Your Cells are Listening Guided Meditation Focused on Healing. I must have found it relaxing because I fell asleep half way through. I’d like to give it another go and get a little more out of it. I woke up late, another sign the meditation was good.

When I got out of bad I had a crazy bad pain across the back of my shoulders, so I didn’t bother with a workout. I’ll pick that up again tomorrow. So with that not on the agenda, I got to art-ing.

I wanted to practice painting another scene with people in it in the most casual way possible (which is why it’s kind of terrible.) I was interested in seeing how I could build up the colours. This was my reference (which it looks nothing like.. at all…not even a little bit!)

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him having a relaxing day at home. He’s decided to catch up on some gaming with his sidekick Mr Soda and Mr Cheese Doodles. He’s also celebrating Cheese Doodle Day.

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That little bit of art seemed to take up my whole day. While I worked on art, I listened/watched a whole heap of art-ing videos on Youtube. I finished the day with some French. Today wasn’t a complete waste but it sorta feels like it.

I hope your day has been filled with colour, creativity and happiness.

Tilly

Day 335

I got to bed before midnight last night. Woo hoo!! My phone was almost flat again, so I chose a short meditation guide ; Pain Relief & Healing GUIDED MEDITATION “The Cleansing Pool”. It’s one of my favourites so I definitely didn’t feel like I was missing out. Homer woke me up about 6 minutes before hubby’s alarm would have gone off. It was a pretty good sleep.

I started the day well. Before hubby had gone to work, I’d done French and Norwegian. Soon as he had gone, I worked out and I’m still feeling it. It took me every second of 30 minutes to finish the workout. It’s something I enjoy while I’m doing it but I’m back to struggling through it. Good times.

Once that was done, I was feeling pretty good that I’d started my day well. I dived into Puddles and got that done in about 2 1/2 hours. If I could get the whole process under 2 hours I’d be much happier. This project wasn’t supposed to take up so much of my days.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him celebrating World Wildlife Day with a bunch of his friend. They took a selfie to commemorate the day.

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The afternoon was… disappointing. This bout of depression has really dug its heels in. I haven’t really experienced anything like this for a couple of years. The thing that really set me off today was an ad on Youtube. I had some Youtube videos playing while I was working out which were interrupted by ads. I would normally skip them but I was nowhere near the mouse so I had to watch them.

There was an ad made by ‘Huggies’ about how hard it is parenting in 2020 when everyone is judging you. There were lots of mothers sharing how they felt they weren’t doing a good enough job. Near the end of the ad their kids and partners were interviewed and said how amazing the mums actually are.

Being a parent was the only thing I ever wanted and it’s the one thing that I will never have. That hurt is way too painful today. Even writing about it hours after it happened and I can’t stop the flood of tears. I guess my loneliness is reaching all new levels of lone.

I tired to re-focus my day by trying to find something on Youtube for watercolour practice. I watched about an hour of videos but my indecisiveness was becoming overwhelming so I gave up on the day and went to bed.

Tomorrow is another day and I can only hope that it goes smoother. I hope your day has brought you nothing but happiness. Good luck with all things on your to-do list this week. Take care.

Tilly

Day 334

I probably got to bed late last night and I did Guided Sleep Meditation “The Healing Spring”. I must have had it on auto-play because I woke up around 3 am and I was still listening to meditation guides. Homer dog gave me a peaceful night and didn’t wake me up until about 8.30 am.

I started the day with French and Norwegian. It was a good practice on both. I’m still working on the new ‘People’ words in French. I have done this much slower than normal even though I’ve been practising more. I’m not sure how that works.

Then it was onto finding a holiday for my Puddles cartoon. Once I learned what it was about, I really wanted to do a tribute piece for ‘Will Eisner Week‘. So I did a quick Google image search and found the perfect piece. It’s the cover of a book which you can find on amazon: Will Eisner: The Centennial Celebration: 1917-2017. This was such a fun piece to create.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him recreating the cover of Will Eisner: The Centennial Celebration: 1917-2017 to celebrate Will Eisner Week.

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I put together a meal plan for the week. I’m going to make this a regular Monday habit. This week only has one vegetarian meal. Oops!

Chicken Caesar Salad : Wednesday
Chilli Mushroom and Bean Mince : Thursday
Buffalo Chickpea Taquitos : Friday
Fish Burgers : Saturday
One-Skillet Sausage, Peppers, Potatoes and Onions : Sunday
Chicken, Chorizo and Tomato Penne : Monday

I’m going to keep the same ‘Happy List’ each week for March. I am happier when I do certain things and apparently I need a list to tell me to do them.

  1. Workout, 5 days
  2. Drink 2 bottles of water, 5 days
  3. Watercolour, 3 days
  4. Do art lesson/’how to’, 3 days
  5. Other art-ing, 3 days
  6. Sing, 2 days
  7. Knit, 2 days
  8. Self care and pampering, 2 days
  9. Be in bed by midnight, 4 days
  10. Smile for 10 minutes, for no reason, 5 days

So I think I’m pretty prepped for the upcoming week. I’ll try and stick to a daily schedule of languages, workout, Puddles, other art-ing and then whatever else I may need to get done in the day. Sounds like a busy and fulfilling week.

I hope you have a productive, inspired and creative week. Do all the things that make you smile or just smile for no reason.

Tilly

Day 332

Last night I tried a Guided Meditation for Natural Healing Sleep by Michael Sealey. I just can’t get into his guides. It went for an hour and I can’t remember any of it. It was a pretty bad nights sleep. I remember taking the earbuds out around 2 am. Then Homer dog woke me around 4 am to go outside and it took me forever to fall asleep again. I got out of bed around 8 am.

It wasn’t my best day. I Puddled. I languaged. I can’t believe that February will be over in a couple of hours. This has not been the glorious start to the year that I had envisioned. The weekend is starting for us and I’m going to come up with a plan of action for March that I can start on Tuesday. I have got to do better.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him opening a bottle of champagne for Rosie. They’re celebrating Open a Bottle Day at the beach. Rosie thought it was very funny when the champagne sprayed everywhere.

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I hope you have a fantastic weekend. Enjoy the little things.

Tilly

Day 331

It was another late night, somewhere around 1 am. My phone was almost flat (that’s what I use to listen to the meditation guides), so I picked a 20 minute one; Pain Relief & Healing GUIDED MEDITATION “The Cleansing Pool”. I got through it without the phone giving up (it was at 2% when the guide finished.) I quickly fell asleep and even got to sleep in. Hubby closed the bedroom door when he got up so Homer dog just had to lay outside waiting instead of waking me up for snuggles.

I felt pretty good and encouraged to start the day. Not long after hubby had twirled off to work, I started a Puddles. Then I got sidetracked. Then the day was almost over!! I finished the day with a mouthful of French and Norwegian.

For watercolour practice today I took inspiration from a landscape on Unsplash.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him and Douglas dog learning how to be a tooth fairy.

I hope your day has been sprinkled with smiles, compliments and something magical. I think you look great in that smile. You should wear it more often.

Tilly