Day 160

When I crawled out of bed around 8 am, I knew I didn’t want to be up for long. Everything ached. My arms, legs, chest, head, my everything felt terrible. I went back to bed and hoped the extra sleep would give me the energy I needed for the day.

I got out of bed again around midday and really couldn’t find the energy. This head cold has really been kicking my booty.

The only thing I worked on today was a happy list. I am determined to get it all done. Wish me luck.

Happy List for 10 September – 15 September 2019

  1. Buy art supplies
  2. Paint
  3. Start a knitting project
  4. Write an ‘About Me’ page on 4440
  5. Draw, 5 days
  6. Write, 2 days
  7. Start a new topic in French
  8. Watch 1 world movie
  9. Massage legs, 2 days
  10. Drink 2 bottles of water, 5 days

Good luck to all those starting new projects or working on old projects this week. You’ll do great. I just know it.



Day 132

I had an okay sleep. Went to bed early because I wasn’t feeling well. Woke after a nightmare but went back to sleep until just before 7 am. I felt okay about starting the day.

I sat down with a cup of coffee and enjoyed every second of it, then dived into French. I got to 200 xp points pretty quickly and for the most part, remembered the words. I probably should have started on a new group of words today.

Soon as hubby had skipped off to work (he probably didn’t skip but I like to think it happened that way), I jumped into my workout. I put on my playlist and made a huge effort to get through it hard and fast. It was an amazing workout. I got to the end and was tempted to do a third round. If I can feel that way after every workout this week, it will be time to increase it.

I had a wonderful comment on yesterday’s post about living in the moment. Thanks Elaine. So I am dedicated to living in the moment. I won’t dwell on the past, I won’t obsess over the future, I will just do each task as it comes and enjoy it as much as possible. So far, so good.

My next task for the day was today’s drawing challenge topic; cityscape. My first thought was to do a drawing of the Sydney, Australia, skyline. It’s my favourite city and I think with so many landmarks, it makes for a wonderful subject. I eventually found this reference picture.

All challenge drawings can be found here…
40 Day Drawing Challenge on Three Peas, One Pod

The afternoon was filled with singing, some work on my short story and I spent a good amount of time reading and commenting on blog posts. There are so many interesting and creative people out there. It’s very inspiring.

A new Happy List is underway but I don’t have all the lists yet, so no updates. The list may seem a bit silly but it has really helped us to focus on things that wouldn’t get much attention before. Things that take little time to achieve but can put some big smiles on faces. I’ve added a couple of very indulgent goals for the week. I feel happier already.

I hope you’re having a wonderfully inspired week.


Day 118

Bonjour! Bienvenue.

My day started as hubby’s alarm went off. I was tempted to turn over and go back to sleep but I made a commitment to myself to get more done this week. I threw the covers off, dived into a cup of coffee and started my French lesson.

With the optimism of a new day, I started a new group of French words, that turned my little French world upside down. This group of lessons has introduced the word ‘nous’, which means we. Whenever you use that word, the words that follow seem to change from the ones you would use with ‘I’, ‘You’, ‘He/She’. They’re similar but longer. I know the clue lies in those extra letters (which might be the same?) but it’s all confusing and Mr Duolingo isn’t really explaining it.

Okay, so French was a little disappointing. No worries! It was time to workout. A nice hard workout would shake off the disappointment. Wrong. My body decided it would have a fatigued sort of day. Within the first two sets of reps I knew this would be a long, hard event. By the last two sets, tears streamed down my cheeks as I wondered why it was like that. I’ve been doing this workout for over 3 months and today it felt like the first day. Mega UGH!

Then the sunshine broke through the clouds and I just forgot about the workout, grabbed my camera, my drawing of sunshine and went to hopefully capture something share worthy. Enjoy!

All challenge drawings can be found here…
40 Day Drawing Challenge on Three Peas, One Pod

When I showed the drawing to wifey she said that she loved it so much, she would totally get it as a tattoo. I’m feeling pretty good about that. Not everyone may like the drawing but I know it’s made someone smile and that’s awesome.

Today’s drawing challenge topic; a saying. It took me a minute or two to work out what direction I wanted to go but then I saw a quote on Pinterest and thought it seemed fitting.

All challenge drawings can be found here…
40 Day Drawing Challenge on Three Peas, One Pod

I also did some singing today but still nothing share worthy. There was also a little socialising too. Plus a nap. I stuffed as much into my day as I possibly could.

So today starts a new Happy List and I can hear you screaming… ‘But Tilly! Where is last weeks list? Did you even happy?’. Thanks for your concern. I did happy last week. We all did. I just never got round to updating it. The updates are updated now though and a new list begins.

This week I’ve got a couple of new goals. One is to research some coastal arts and crafts and decor ideas. I feel like it’s the theme I want for my house, seeing we’re about a 5 minute drive to the beach.

The other new goal is to comment more on blog posts I read. I come across a lot of posts that are highly comment worthy but sometimes my social anxiety creeps in and I can’t find the right words to say what I want to say. That’s just silly. I want to encourage people as much as people have been encouraging me.

I hope your day has been filled with creativity and sunshine. Good luck if you’re starting a new project this week.


Day 106

I woke just before 6.30 am and decided to get up. My goal was to paint and I knew there’d be a number of things I’d need to get out of the way first.

I sat down at the computer, rubbed my eyes and read the BEST message ever…. wifey is coming home. HUZZAH!!! ^_^ There is only 34 days until she will be here. It’s going to be so much fun doing all my learning, plus arts and craft, with her. The happiness is real. I was even able to say; ‘Tu as un billet d’avion’ and ‘Tu vas a l’aeroport en voiture’. Pretty sure those are right.

Once my excitement calmed slightly, it was on to French lessons. I’m still learning the ‘family’ words. Every day more words seem to sink in. I did another 30 minutes today.

Then I flicked over to the world movies channel. A French movie, The Finishers, was just starting. It was an inspirational and heartfelt movie, which had hubby and I both in tears….and made hubby a little late for work.

Next it was onto my workout. My body has been feeling fatigued for over a week now. Some days are worse than others. Today I was really feeling the lack of energy in my muscles. I did my best and still got through the whole workout, even if there were many, many times when I wanted to stop.

Time was ticking away and it felt as if the painting dream was slipping through my fingers. Surely I could get the drawing for today done quickly and then I could finally paint. Today’s drawing challenge topic; funny creatures. Oh no! This is not something I’d be able to do quickly.

I Googled ‘funny creatures’ and found photos of animals making silly faces, animal morphs and things that might give me nightmares if I tried to draw them. Then I found a Pokemon picture that was titled ‘funny little creatures‘, so that’s the one I went with. It was a hard draw. I didn’t get the size right…on anything. I think it’s still readable as Pokemon.

All challenge drawings can be found here…
40 Day Drawing Challenge on Three Peas, One Pod

It was now too late to start painting. So instead of feeling bad about not getting things done, I did a task off my Happy List. I napped. It’s nice to be able to treat myself to a nap instead of using it as a way to avoid depression. Tomorrow, I WILL paint. Fingers crossed.

30 Day Blog Challenge – All my answers will be posted here.

Day 26: If you had 1 million dollars to spend, how would you spend it?

I’d take it to a casino and put it all on black!

Well, probably not. The only things I’m really interested in, that are big money items, would be to buy a house somewhere rural with room for veggie gardens, chickens and goats. I imagine that would take up a good portion of the money, getting that all set up. Goat pyjamas would have to be expensive.

Then a cruise. A world cruise or a European river cruise… or both.

Then with whatever is left over, I’d put it all on black.

It’s nice to have dreams and I love the fact my life dream is to have goats in pyjamas. What more could one want?

I hope you’re having a comfy pyjama kind of day.


Day 97

I crawled out of bed at 7 am and was feeling so tired that it actually made me feel sick. I struggled through French and felt like I barely remembered any words. I know it was just the tired fog.

The tired fog lingered for most of the day. I did my workout and took 6 minutes longer than normal but at least I got it done.

I got back to the creatives with a ‘circle’ drawing for the drawing challenge. At first I wanted to draw bubbles. I started shading and erasing over and over until I realised it just wasn’t going to happen and went to Google for inspiration. I found these great little circle doodles and gave it a try. Some I copied, some I did on my own. Kinda cute.

All challenge drawings can be found here…
40 Day Drawing Challenge on Three Peas, One Pod

After lunch I wrote a new Happy List. This week I’ve scaled it back a little more so I can have some down time. I’ve been go go go for over a month now and I’m finding it a bit draining, physically and mentally. A more relaxed week should get me over the 100 day hump.

A goal for this week was to nap twice. I used to nap frequently but it was mostly because I was depressed all the time and it was easier to be asleep than dealing with the things in my head. I’m not trying to hide away now, I’m just trying to allow myself the chance to relax. I napped and it was lovely.

No big plans for tomorrow. I’ll just focus on something creative.

30 Day Blog Challenge – All my answers will be posted here.

Day 17: List your highs and lows of this past year

The highs of the last year was definitely wifey being here for Christmas, New Year and Valentines Day. Also starting my life changing journey is a bit of a high, especially because I haven’t given up. The other thing is hubby getting on board with the Happy List and meditating. It’s nice to see him set goals and achieve.

Nothing has really gone badly in the past year (thankfully!) so there aren’t many lows to note. You wouldn’t know that by the way I am though. Living with depression and suicidal thoughts constantly, without medication or help, for well over 20 years is a big struggle. It’s a long time low that I’m working on changing.


Day 90

Hubby was back to work today and life continued on as planned. I got my French lesson out of the way before hubby had even left. I started on a new group of ‘travel’ words. Even though a lot of words are very similar to English, I fear I don’t remember a single one.

Soon as hubby was on his way to work, I worked out. It was nice.

I then moved onto the creatives. Seeing I have been making a commitment to drawing daily, I thought it’d be a great time to start a drawing challenge. I saved the 40 Day Drawing Challenge on  Pinterest months ago. I had to draw a bird or birds. I haven’t had much luck with bird attempts in the past, so I decided to stick to drawing only one.

All challenge drawings can be found here…
40 Day Drawing Challenge on Three Peas, One Pod

Writing was a bit of a challenge today. I probably wrote about 5 minutes from the first 20 minutes of sitting here. I flipped between the two stories I’m working on and neither really felt right. I pushed on for an amount of time that I felt was comfortably 20 minutes of writing then decided to sing.

Singing was fun. I use the website SingSnap for all my karaoke fun. I have been refining my favourites list by just… singing the songs. If I don’t want to sing it, it’s off the list. I sang, I recorded and while listening to the playbacks, I worked on one of my stories. My singing was inspiring me to write. It was a weird feeling but I got more writing done. That made me feel good.

A new week of The Happy List has just started. I have given myself a slightly easier week by extending deadlines and removing a couple of repetitions. I still feel the creative is pretty heavy which will help keep me focused or distracted or both.

30 Day Blog Challenge – All my answers will be posted here.

Day 10: What is your guilty pleasure?

Alright, stop! Collaborate and listen.

Yes! If you know what I just did there, you already know why this is my guilty pleasure.

I cannot count the number of times that I have busted out the first verse of that song in reply to what someone has said. Which brings me to a very good point; nobody knows the second verse of that song. If you do, can we be best friends?

My goal for this week; just keep powering through. Good luck and good power to those needing a little boost this week.


Day 82

Today didn’t turn out at all as I’d planned. I didn’t have any concrete plans but it was supposed to be a cleaning day.

I wasn’t long out of bed when a gaming friend asked me to log in to do some stuff with him. While we were hanging out I told him that I wasn’t going to renew my sub. He then offered to pay for my next months game time. Looks like that little slice of my life will continue for now.

I had a really relaxed day just playing games. I do feel a little bit guilty though, there is really so much adulting that I should have been doing.

Once the sun had set, I got about doing a few little creative things like timed French revision and then some knitting.

The knitting didn’t go so good. I had made a mistake, just like I thought and decided to start again. Attempt two of the gloves was going well until I made the same mistake by knitting the same row twice. I need to find a way to keep track of what I’m up to.

The first week of the family Happy List has officially wrapped up. Overall we did really great for a first attempt. It was extremely rewarding and encouraging marking things off the list and seeing others marking things off their list all week and it seemed to help all of us focus on getting things done.

The final scores:
Me – 100 / 100 | Wifey – 69.9 / 100 | Hubby – 90 / 100

30 Day Blog Challenge – All my answers will be posted here.

Day 2: Where would you like to be in 10 years?

I want to be healthy and happy and surrounded by my family. I want my house to feel like a safe home that truly showcases my personality and creativity, with an overflowing veggie garden. I want to have developed all the skills that I’m currently learning. I would love to be able to take a trip to France and speak French. Mostly, I would like to inspire people to change, grow, be creative and be the best they can be.

This week will be another creative filled delight. I can’t wait to get my paints out, draw, write, sing, workout and learn some new things. May it be a good week for all.