Day 343

I tried to listen to my daily healing meditation before sleep last night but my phone kept going to a black screen and Youtube would stop playing. When I woke this morning and checked the phone, the guide had stopped at 11 minutes. I missed my meditation and definitely felt worse for wear this morning.

Sometimes I just act like things aren’t wrong because I don’t want them to be wrong. So if I ignore them, they don’t exist, right? Last week I pulled something in my back when I was working out. I ignored it and worked out the following day. The last few days have been really painful and with a looming head cold, I’m feeling pretty wrecked.

So my day didn’t really consist of much. More sleep, a Puddles, a fantastic practice of French and Norwegian and a handful of dishes (I can’t stand having a messy kitchen.) Not a bad attempt at a day.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him building a dog house for Douglas dog. This is the first time Arthur has tried to build something. He didn’t even know what half the tools did. It was an interesting way to spend National Tool Worship Day.

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I learned two things about myself today…
1. I don’t know what tools in a toolbox look like.
2. I don’t like corn tortillas.

I hope your day has been filled with happiness, knowledge and all the things you enjoy. Take care.

Tilly

Day 342

I got to bed early and listened to the same meditation guide I have been using for the last few nights. I had a good sleep but I woke up feeling pretty unwell. I hope I’m not getting sick. Before hubby had even gone to work, I had gone back to bed. I listened to Rapid Healing While You Sleep and spent the morning trying to get more rest.

When I got up I worked on today’s Puddles, did French and Norwegian and that was it. Hopefully I’ll feel better tomorrow.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him and Douglas dog getting dressed up for a National Mario Day party.

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I hope your day has been filled with good health, good friends and good luck.

Tilly

Day 341

I almost got through the entire meditation guide last night before falling asleep. It was a decent sleep and I woke feeling pretty good around 7 am. Hubby had to go to work for a couple of hours, so it wasn’t really a weekend day….. for him. Apparently I took full advantage of the weekend and didn’t get much done.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him and Douglas dog gift wrapping a vintage Barbie doll. Arthur thought Rosie would love to celebrate National Barbie Day with a piece of history.

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This weeks meal plan features two vegetarian meals. The stew will be for two night’s.

Chicken Caesar Salad : Thursday
Buffalo Chickpea Taquitos : Friday
Chicken and Haloumi Burgers : Saturday
Ricotta & Spinach Gnocchi Bake : Sunday
Beef and Mushroom Stew : Monday / Tuesday

It’s the start of a new Happy List week. The goals are the same as last week. Last week I did fairly good… sort of okay… I did some stuff… not much. Eep! I worked out 4/5 times, did the water drinking, did the watercolouring, I sang twice and I was in bed on time. I know there were bouts of smiling for no reason but didn’t really time them. I’m sure I can do better this week.

  1. Workout, 5 days
  2. Drink 2 bottles of water, 5 days
  3. Watercolour, 3 days
  4. Do art lesson/’how to’, 3 days
  5. Other art-ing, 3 days
  6. Sing, 2 days
  7. Knit, 2 days
  8. Self care and pampering, 2 days
  9. Be in bed by midnight, 4 days
  10. Smile for 10 minutes, for no reason, 5 days

I hope this week is filled full of goodness, success and bouts of uncontrollable smiling. Have fun and take care.

Tilly

Day 340

It was another night of  HEAL while you SLEEP ★ Your Cells are Listening Guided Meditation Focused on Healing for my meditation. I’m really enjoying this guide. I have been sleeping much deeper and feeling a little better when I wake. I slept in! We didn’t get out of bed til after 11 am.

I worked on Puddles for a bit before spending the afternoon doing mythic dungeons in WoW. Whenever I did something victorious in the game, I would whisper, ‘International Women’s Day’. I’m pretty sure that’s how you’re supposed to celebrate it.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him and Douglas dog bringing Rosie some lunch. She was very excited to see them. They were going to spend the day celebrating International Women’s Day but Rosie got called into work. Arthur loved the view from her office.

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I finished the day with French and Norwegian. Not much to report. It was a fair practice.

I hope your weekend is relaxing, fun and you are surrounded by people that make you smile. Stay safe.

Tilly

Day 339

I got to bed just after midnight and did  HEAL while you SLEEP ★ Your Cells are Listening Guided Meditation Focused on Healing. I got more from it this time but still fell asleep before it ended and barely remembered it this morning. I feel like I’m in less pain though. Maybe it’s working? I ended up waking up late.

I crawled out of bed around 8 am and got to chatting with hubby. We reminisced over some music compilation cassette tapes that we both had when we were teenagers; 100% Hits. It was an Australian compilation series of what was in the charts at the time. It started in 1991 and went for much longer than I thought. I had all of them up to 100% Hits Volume 15. Hubby and I wanted to relive the tunes from our teens so I jumped on Youtube in hope. I got lucky. A user by the name of Darrin Hyde had uploaded a number of them, if not all of them. That’s exactly what we’ll be listening to all weekend.

Once hubby scurried off to work, I worked out. My lower back was feeling yesterdays workout but I pushed through. I did the 30 minute workout in 27 minutes. It was a good effort.

Then it was onto the art-ing. I spent an hour or so trying to edit a background from the Puddles series (redrawing it would have been sooooo much quicker.) Then just as I was getting ready to do the sketching part, my discord messages to wifey stopped going through. So we ended up chatting on voice instead. Five hours later, I had whipped up a Puddles but the day was almost over. I can’t complain though. I love spending time with wifey.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him playing Cereal Waterfall with Douglas Dog. The aim of the game is to pour the milk into the bowl until it creates a waterfall out of the bowl, over the table and into the waiting mouth below. They had so much fun on National Cereal Day.

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By the time wifey had zombie-shuffled off to bed, my day was almost over. I finished with a face full of French and Norwegian. This new French topic is really kicking my booty. I’m not going to give up, of course. I’ll just need a lot more focused practice with French next week.

Tomorrow is the first day of the weekend for hubby, so he’ll have a feet up sort of day. I’ll spend the morning Puddling and the afternoon WoW’ing. I’m not really looking forward to the WoW’ing. I need a Paladin!!! You know who you are.

I hope you have a wonderful weekend whether you are relaxing, being super productive and everything in between. Stay safe.

Tilly

Day 338

I got to bed before midnight again. I’m enjoying this new habit. I did another new meditation guide; Rapid Healing While You Sleep. I enjoyed it but I know I fell asleep long before I should have. That’s okay though, as long as I’m getting sleep. I woke just after 6 am and tried to go back to sleep but tossed and turned until I got up just before 7 am.

I powered through French and Norwegian over a cup of coffee. This was my best day at Norwegian. I got at least 18 out of 20 questions right each time. French on the other hand was horrible. I struggled through the practice and wished I had just continued on my magical Norwegian journey.

When hubby shuffled off to work, I worked out. It was rather humid and I took my sweet time doing the workout. I did it though. YAY!

When it came time to do the art-ing I started with another ‘person’ watercolour. After a couple hours of painting, I had nothing to show. Eep! What was supposed to be a female in the woods, turned into a very 90s looking male… in the woods. As a painting of a 90s male, it was pretty good. I had some good texture on the clothing and the skin was shadowed well.

I still had a lot of paint leftover so I thought I’d try a winter landscape; Watercolour Snow Melt. About half way through I was sorta over the whole painting experience, so I called it done. It didn’t look done. I took a couple of photos and really liked a cropped version of it. There were lots of nice painting elements today but just not a whole piece.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him and Rosie celebrating National Dress in Blue Day. Arthur felt like the Captain of a ship, so they went out on the harbour in a rowboat.

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The art-ing took up the whole day. Although I did manage to get about 45 minutes of singing practice in before hubby got home. It was a pretty good day.

I hope your day has been bright, colourful and filled with all the things you enjoy.

Tilly

Day 337

I tried a meditation guide made by Progressive Hypnosis; HEAL while you SLEEP ★ Your Cells are Listening Guided Meditation Focused on Healing. I must have found it relaxing because I fell asleep half way through. I’d like to give it another go and get a little more out of it. I woke up late, another sign the meditation was good.

When I got out of bad I had a crazy bad pain across the back of my shoulders, so I didn’t bother with a workout. I’ll pick that up again tomorrow. So with that not on the agenda, I got to art-ing.

I wanted to practice painting another scene with people in it in the most casual way possible (which is why it’s kind of terrible.) I was interested in seeing how I could build up the colours. This was my reference (which it looks nothing like.. at all…not even a little bit!)

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him having a relaxing day at home. He’s decided to catch up on some gaming with his sidekick Mr Soda and Mr Cheese Doodles. He’s also celebrating Cheese Doodle Day.

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That little bit of art seemed to take up my whole day. While I worked on art, I listened/watched a whole heap of art-ing videos on Youtube. I finished the day with some French. Today wasn’t a complete waste but it sorta feels like it.

I hope your day has been filled with colour, creativity and happiness.

Tilly

Day 336

I got to bed before midnight last night. Woo hoo!! See what I mean about the fact I do the things I should…when there is a list. I added an earlier bedtime to my Happy List and two nights in a row, I’ve had an earlier night. If I was a Sim, my happiness would have increased by at least 2 points. When I went to bed I thought I’d try listening to an 8 hour meditation. It seems after about 45 minutes I turned it off. Earbuds all night was not a good plan.

I woke around 7 am. It was cool and dark which made the morning a little harder to start. Apparently I can’t have it too hot and bright or too cold and dark. I’m like the Goldilocks of mornings. It all has to be just right for me to get into the day. I got through Norwegian before hubby buzzed off to work.

Once hubby had started his day, I officially started mine with a workout. For my Youtube video sidekick I decided to watch some TED talks on child abuse/trauma and how it affects you.

When I was growing up someone said to me that growing up with domestic violence and abuse was like living in a war zone. I never really understood why it would be comparable but after watching; The effect of trauma on the brain and how it affects behaviours by John Rigg, it made more sense. Growing up with abuse leaves you in a constant state of being on alert as people are when they are deployed for war. You’re always waiting for something to happen. My brains response to the abuse I went through is very similar to those that have been to war.

I then made the silly mistake of reading comments except today, it wasn’t so silly. Some of the comments raised some things I didn’t even know were a thing. Like, I’d heard of the ‘Flight or Fight’ response (which John Rigg spoke about in his talk) but apparently there are two other ‘F’ related responses. They are ‘Freeze and Fawn.’ I searched Google to find out the meanings.

  • To fight is to confront the threat aggressively.
  • Flight means you run from the danger.
  • When you freeze, you find yourself unable to move or act against the threat.
  • You may find yourself hiding from the danger. Fawn is the response of complying with the attacker to save yourself.

This really got me confused. When I was watching the Ted talk I could identify with what he was saying about ‘fight or flight’ responses in relation to my own childhood abuse. When I read the meaning of the other two my first thought was they are both ‘flight’ responses. They are just different ways of removing yourself from the situation. Then I pondered more over both meanings and yes, they are separate and I can identify with both responses.

I got to chatting to wifey about it and she did some quick Google searches to find out more about it too. This was the first time she’d heard of the ‘freeze and fawn’ response. She linked me to; Fight Flight Freeze: How To Recognise It And What To Do When It Happens. It was interesting to read that I have physical reactions from each of the categories, simultaneously. My body can’t even work out what is the best response and goes for all of them.

So where to from here? This is a topic I need to learn more about. Thankfully I have the ability to hear the opinions of hundreds of healthcare professionals from around the world. I can see a lot of TED talks in my future. Of course I’ll take each with a grain of salt but I figure it’s a great place to start.

After some great conversation with wifey, I stared some art-ing. For my watercolour I was going to follow a video on Youtube but I didn’t want to waste more time looking for something. I had a search on Unsplash still open with photos of Poland, so I took inspiration from the first one that caught my eye; a couple sitting by a body of water. The one thing that I took away from this practice was that I actually enjoyed painting the people.

Today’s Puddles is a special one. When I first started drawing the penguin character, long before I had even come up with a concept for the Arthur Puddles blog, my good friend ‘The Pally’ was inspired by my art-ing and drew a penguin character of his own. I thought it was fantastic.

When I started putting together the holiday list for the Puddles cartoon, there was a day that I thought would be perfect to use ‘The Pally’s’ penguin sketch. Today is the day. I’m really happy with how this turned out. I drew Arthur digitally over the other penguin. The background was drawn with an ink pen and coloured digitally (as all the Puddles cartoons are now made.)

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him giving Private Penguin a big hug for Hug a G.I day. Douglas dog had been practising how to salute all week. They had a great day at the army base.

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The art-ing took up almost the whole day. I finished the day with some light housework. It was a pretty good day.

I hope your day has been filled with all the things that make you smile.

Tilly

Day 335

I got to bed before midnight last night. Woo hoo!! My phone was almost flat again, so I chose a short meditation guide ; Pain Relief & Healing GUIDED MEDITATION “The Cleansing Pool”. It’s one of my favourites so I definitely didn’t feel like I was missing out. Homer woke me up about 6 minutes before hubby’s alarm would have gone off. It was a pretty good sleep.

I started the day well. Before hubby had gone to work, I’d done French and Norwegian. Soon as he had gone, I worked out and I’m still feeling it. It took me every second of 30 minutes to finish the workout. It’s something I enjoy while I’m doing it but I’m back to struggling through it. Good times.

Once that was done, I was feeling pretty good that I’d started my day well. I dived into Puddles and got that done in about 2 1/2 hours. If I could get the whole process under 2 hours I’d be much happier. This project wasn’t supposed to take up so much of my days.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him celebrating World Wildlife Day with a bunch of his friend. They took a selfie to commemorate the day.

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The afternoon was… disappointing. This bout of depression has really dug its heels in. I haven’t really experienced anything like this for a couple of years. The thing that really set me off today was an ad on Youtube. I had some Youtube videos playing while I was working out which were interrupted by ads. I would normally skip them but I was nowhere near the mouse so I had to watch them.

There was an ad made by ‘Huggies’ about how hard it is parenting in 2020 when everyone is judging you. There were lots of mothers sharing how they felt they weren’t doing a good enough job. Near the end of the ad their kids and partners were interviewed and said how amazing the mums actually are.

Being a parent was the only thing I ever wanted and it’s the one thing that I will never have. That hurt is way too painful today. Even writing about it hours after it happened and I can’t stop the flood of tears. I guess my loneliness is reaching all new levels of lone.

I tired to re-focus my day by trying to find something on Youtube for watercolour practice. I watched about an hour of videos but my indecisiveness was becoming overwhelming so I gave up on the day and went to bed.

Tomorrow is another day and I can only hope that it goes smoother. I hope your day has brought you nothing but happiness. Good luck with all things on your to-do list this week. Take care.

Tilly

Day 334

I probably got to bed late last night and I did Guided Sleep Meditation “The Healing Spring”. I must have had it on auto-play because I woke up around 3 am and I was still listening to meditation guides. Homer dog gave me a peaceful night and didn’t wake me up until about 8.30 am.

I started the day with French and Norwegian. It was a good practice on both. I’m still working on the new ‘People’ words in French. I have done this much slower than normal even though I’ve been practising more. I’m not sure how that works.

Then it was onto finding a holiday for my Puddles cartoon. Once I learned what it was about, I really wanted to do a tribute piece for ‘Will Eisner Week‘. So I did a quick Google image search and found the perfect piece. It’s the cover of a book which you can find on amazon: Will Eisner: The Centennial Celebration: 1917-2017. This was such a fun piece to create.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him recreating the cover of Will Eisner: The Centennial Celebration: 1917-2017 to celebrate Will Eisner Week.

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I put together a meal plan for the week. I’m going to make this a regular Monday habit. This week only has one vegetarian meal. Oops!

Chicken Caesar Salad : Wednesday
Chilli Mushroom and Bean Mince : Thursday
Buffalo Chickpea Taquitos : Friday
Fish Burgers : Saturday
One-Skillet Sausage, Peppers, Potatoes and Onions : Sunday
Chicken, Chorizo and Tomato Penne : Monday

I’m going to keep the same ‘Happy List’ each week for March. I am happier when I do certain things and apparently I need a list to tell me to do them.

  1. Workout, 5 days
  2. Drink 2 bottles of water, 5 days
  3. Watercolour, 3 days
  4. Do art lesson/’how to’, 3 days
  5. Other art-ing, 3 days
  6. Sing, 2 days
  7. Knit, 2 days
  8. Self care and pampering, 2 days
  9. Be in bed by midnight, 4 days
  10. Smile for 10 minutes, for no reason, 5 days

So I think I’m pretty prepped for the upcoming week. I’ll try and stick to a daily schedule of languages, workout, Puddles, other art-ing and then whatever else I may need to get done in the day. Sounds like a busy and fulfilling week.

I hope you have a productive, inspired and creative week. Do all the things that make you smile or just smile for no reason.

Tilly