Day 168

I woke up before hubby left for work but the morning seems like it was years ago and I barely remember it. Once hubby had pounced off to work, it was time for a workout. Wifey joined me for today’s workout and we got through 30 minutes before I had even noticed.

With the inspiration of a good workout under my belt I attempted the Doodlewash – September 2019 prompt; 15. Stairs. I wanted to draw stairs with pot plants on them and set out to find a good reference photo. I used these stairs from 5 Great Staircase Decorating Ideas.

I added more colour to the pot plants and less colour to the walls. I was not happy with how it turned out but didn’t really know how to improve it. So I gave up on it. Hmph.

All challenge drawings can be found here…
Doodlewash – September 2019 on Three Peas, One Pod

After a long lunch, a shower and a big heaping of depression, I thought I would attempt another of the Doodlewash prompts; 16. Eyes.

I really enjoyed the first time I drew eyes so I felt optimistic that I could produce something I would like. By the time I had finished drawing the eyes, I wanted to add a tear drop to the sketch to represent how I was feeling at the time. Round two of drawing was not a success.

By late afternoon I had given up on the day. I tried. That’s something.

You may wonder why I post art I’m not happy with or why I share my bad moods. This blog is about my journey. The ups and the downs. I think it’s important to remember that it is okay to have bad days, it’s okay to be disappointed, it’s okay to not be perfect. The important part is to keep trying. Tomorrow I will try again.

I hope your day has been filled with success and happiness.

Tilly

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Day 154

The morning started at 7 am and I was okay with that. My head is still feeling stuffy but I am feeling better than yesterday. I sipped coffee and jumped into French practice. I feel confident that I can start some new words next week. I still have issues with the student/studying thing but I know where the problem is and I just need to think it through more.

The next thing on the creative agenda was the final sketch from the Doodlewash – August 2019 challenge. I used three prompts; 15. Cycle + 30. Clothes + 31. Suitcase. My first idea was to sketch someone riding a bicycle, with open suitcase on the back and clothes flying out. Too hard.

So I settled on sketching a bike against a fence, with suitcases on the back and a washing line with clothes. Success. This has been such a fun challenge. If you’re interested in this month’s Doodlewash challenge, click here.

All challenge drawings can be found here…
Doodlewash – August 2019 on Three Peas, One Pod

The midday blues seemed to settle and my afternoon was filled with a nap. When I woke my mood wasn’t any better and I only got more annoyed as the evening went on. I’m still in a terrible mood. I think I’m feeling this way because I’m just over being sick. Who has time to be sick?

I hope you’ve had a wonderfully creative day, filled with smiles and good feels.

Tilly

Day 141

Homer dog woke me up just after 6 am and wanted to go out. My first reaction was; ‘It’s too early, noooooooooooo!’. That was quickly pushed aside by a; ‘let’s check where wifeys flight is at’. I let Homer out and sat down to find out.

I searched the flight and was shocked to see it hadn’t taken off. What was supposed to be a one hour flight was saying it would land in 2 1/2 hours…. except it hadn’t taken off. I was so confused. I checked the time in Atlanta to see if she’d be making her next flight, NOPE! UGH. It wasn’t long after when she messaged saying not to worry but there were plane troubles with the first plane and she wouldn’t be leaving the US today.

UGH, double UGH, triple UGH. Then a big handful of colourful words, I won’t repeat here, fell from my mouth as tears poured from my eyes like I was cartoon character.

The reality is, it won’t be that much longer and she will be here but it felt like a devastating blow delivered by the universe directly into my motivational centre.

It’s 8.30 am now and my rational brain is trying to kick into gear and guide me through my normal day, like nothing has gone wrong. My irrational brain wants to get drunk (at 8.30 am) and belt out some sort of emotional tune until she lands. I don’t feel like doing the day. I’ll let you know how that turns out……

…..almost rational brain won. I picked up my pencil and decided to work on today’s Doodlewash – August 2109 prompts; 7. Sign + 22. Trains. I took inspiration from ‘The Blue Train‘. I found this drawing super hard, even while doing the first rough sketch yesterday. It made it harder as I tried to do it through blurry eyes. I did it though. I’m proud that I picked the right path for my day.

All challenge drawings can be found here…
Doodlewash – August 2019 on Three Peas, One Pod

I’m sure it was just a build up of emotions that had gathered in my head for a grand old headache-down, so I wandered off to bed. I’m not sure I even slept or if I had long bursts of keeping my eyes shut. Either way, it happened for hours.

I got out of bed again late afternoon and figured I should probably do some of my morning things. I did French practice. I got to 200 xp points rather quickly and didn’t have as much trouble remembering the words. I think I’m cheating and just assuming I should be using ‘Ils’ and ‘Elles’, over really understanding a sentence. I’m taking a win wherever I can find one today.

Then I busted out my workout in about 22 minutes, finishing up just after hubby got home. I’m calling that a day. Three more days til wifey gets home now, the countdown continues.

I hope your day has been problem free, creative and filled with many glorious smiles.

Tilly

Day 131

It was a short nights sleep. I guess I can be thankful for that one 9 hour sleep this week. I crawled out of bed around 6.30 am and jumped straight in the shower. Once curled up on the sofa, I sat and stared for what seemed like forever, then hubby woke up.

Hubby and I started the day with coffee and a really really bad movie; The Dancing Ninja. If you’re into really bad movies that star David Hasselhoff, then this one is for you.

With another wasted morning behind us, we hit the housework trail. I got a good bit done before I sat down to tackle today’s drawing topic; anything I want. Not today, please not today. I think I swept my creativity under the sofa and the idea of coming up with something was more than my poor little brain could handle.

I asked hubby what I should draw, his reply was, ‘whispering eye.’ If you’ve seen the movie Role Models then you would know what he was refering to and why that wasn’t going to happen.

Next I asked a friend what I should draw, his reply was; ‘Why not try something of a sci-fi fantasy nature?A magical rose floating over a vase of natural composition which is also floating in a sea of nothingness?’ All I can say to that suggestion is, I can’t even.

Lastly, (and I feel like this is the Goldilocks and the Three Bears of drawing) I asked wifey what I should draw. Her first response I won’t even share. She can be a little naughty sometimes. Then she linked me a very big page of possible things to draw. Check out 99 Insanely Smart, Easy and Cool Drawings to Pursue Now. I chose one of them.

All challenge drawings can be found here…
40 Day Drawing Challenge on Three Peas, One Pod

There isn’t much more to recount from my day. I’m still struggling with depression. The bad feels have set in for the winter and I just can’t seem to pull myself out of it. I’m not achieving as much as I want and the victories I have made seem so small and insignificant I fail to be proud of myself. It just feels like I’m running out of time and I’m going to get to 40 without even coming close to what I wanted to achieve. UGH!

A new week is tickling my heels and I need to find a huge amount of effort that I do not currently have. If you have some spare effort you could lend me, I would appreciate it.

Even though my world doesn’t feel like a very bright place at the moment, I just want to wish anyone who reads this all the light, goodness, happiness and creativity they can handle…and then a little bit more. You are amazing and you deserve it.

Tilly

Day 126

I went to bed a little early but woke around 4.30 am. It took too long to fall asleep again and when 7 am came around it felt like I hadn’t slept. I got up and stared over a cup of coffee and then I stared over another cup of coffee. Eventually I pointed my stare at my computer and got to French practice.

French went pretty smoothly, except for one timed run where I only got four right before the timer ran out. I can only imagine I got distracted. I had a number of perfect timed runs and got to 200 xp points in about 30 minutes.

Next it was time to workout. I really wasn’t feeling it today and you can tell. It took me 34 minutes. I feel like it was a good workout, just uninspired.

I hate to say it but I am feeling flat. I have so many reasons to be happy at the moment and they are having a hard time breaking their way through the doom bubble. There is no particular reason I feel unhappy either. It just feels, doomish, with bouts of tears. It’s making me look at myself in a really negative way. It sucks.

I tried to get past the feels and got onto today’s drawing challenge topic; a coffee/tea cup. I feel like what I ended up drawing could be used for either. I found a tutorial; ‘How to Draw a Cup – It’s Important‘ and opted for the second cup. It looked so much easier than it was. A very good lesson though.

All challenge drawings can be found here…
40 Day Drawing Challenge on Three Peas, One Pod

I took some photos of all our little plants yesterday and thought I would share their progress. Honestly, I’m not sure there is any. All the stuff that should be happening is under the soil and the stuff happening above soil, isn’t very encouraging. I still enjoy taking photos of them or even singing to them. For all my gardening stuff, check out; Three Peas, One Pod.

I’ve been a bit obsessed with Quick Draw with Google. It’s like playing Pictionary with your computer. Sometimes you wonder about its guesses but I bet it also wonders about some of my attempts.

The afternoon started with some housework and lunch. Then quickly moved into nap territory when I felt a headache coming on. When I was awake again I spent some hours socialising. For the most part it was good.

I hope your day has been filled with happiness, good times and encouraging words. I think you’re marvellous, like a super hero!

Tilly

Day 124

It was another terrible nights sleep and I can honestly say I gave up on the day before it even started. UGH!

There was a lil housework done, a lil French and a lil nap. It’s the weekend for hubby and I, so I’m going to pretend that it was meant to be a rest day.

I don’t have anything to show for my day, so here’s an inspirational quote that seemed to fit the mood.

I hope this coming week will be filled with inspiration, motivation, dedication and most importantly; lots of smiles, happiness and creativity for everyone.

Take care of yourself.

Tilly

Day 120

I woke up too early but thought it was okay to get up seeing I’d gone to bed early the night before. I was still tired but I figured I could get into my day pretty quick and have one of those high achieving days. I was wrong.

It took well over an hour to start French. Once I got started, I very quickly got distracted. My daily goal on Duolingo is to make at least 50 xp points. On a normal day I try to do over 200 points xp, which is easily done if I’m doing 30 minutes. Today I barely got past 50 points.

I had a friend ask me to play some WoW with him (and I was going to give up my normal morning activities to do it) but he got sidetracked and didn’t have time for me. At first I felt annoyed, seeing I was going to disrupt my day but that quickly faded into sadness. I guess I just felt like I wasn’t important. I always feel that way, which makes me crave affirmation….or if we’re honest,makes me needy. UGH!

I got into my workout and did it while listening to an Indie Playlist I made. The pace of the music was amazing for a regimented workout. I worked out 7 minutes faster than normal and it felt like I’d worked out twice as hard. I’m hoping to do the same thing again tomorrow.

Next I worked on today’s drawing topic; umbrella. When I first thought of this I was going to draw a winter or rainy scene with the umbrella. Then I had someone point out in Australia umbrellas are just as important in summer. The light bulb moment struck and I created a beach scene.

I know the umbrella isn’t really the focus of the picture. It was the last thing I added to the scene and was by far, the hardest thing to tackle. It took many, many attempts to get something that made sense. I love this drawing though.

All challenge drawings can be found here…
40 Day Drawing Challenge on Three Peas, One Pod

There really wasn’t much more to my day except for occasional bouts of sulking and one cosy nap that didn’t last long enough. I’m almost getting a little worried about myself. I’ve been having more naps lately and it feels like it is to avoid things. I guess I really need to refocus the arts and crafts and keep myself creatively busy til these bad feels pass.

I hope you’re having a magical day, with sweet surprises and success in everything you do.

Tilly