Day 400 – Day 412

Day 400 – 7 May 2020 to Day 411 – 18 May 2020

Day 400 came with a truckload of depression and I gave up.

Firstly, I have really been struggling with my depression for weeks leading up to Day 400. One of the main reasons was losing a friend. I’m not sure why things changed between us but one day he just stopped caring. This was the first friend I’d had in over 10 years. I had shared more with him than I had anyone else (outside of hubby and wifey.) This situation really hurt my self confidence. It’s made me doubt a lot of things about myself and about the way people feel about me. (Poor hubby and wifey are now suffering through all my insecurities.)

Secondly, I have been pretty hard on myself during this journey. While I have learned, grown and seen changes in myself I know there are a lot of things that I haven’t done. I know there are a lot of things I haven’t attempted doing and I know that I’m running out of time. So yeah, I got really down as Day 400 wagged its finger in my face.

So what did I do during those 11 days? I spent a couple of days ignoring things. Then I spent a handful of days in bed with a head cold. There was about five days where my computer was missing because it had to go visit the computer doctor. I was defeated. I was sulky. I was not living my best life. The only thing that I have kept up with is writing a meal plan. I am loving keto recipes (low carb recipes.)

I’m not going to beat myself up for all the things I didn’t do during this time. That time is gone and it’s time to focus on the next step. I really want to embrace taking life one day at a time.


Day 412 – 19 May 2020

It’s the first day of the work week for hubby, so today was ‘GO’ day for me. I got to bed just before midnight last night, listened to a healing meditation and got a fairly decent sleep. It was enough to help me undertake a normal day. I’ve got some hard work ahead of me to get a normal routine back on track. So far, we’re in May and I’ve spent all year struggling. Ugh.

First thing on the agenda was French. I refreshed some old lessons and realised the last two sets of lessons are fairly unknown to my brain, so I’ll just focus on French only until I feel back on track. It was a good practice, even if I didn’t remember as much as I would have liked.

Next I did some singing practice. Now that wifey and I are back in Secondlife, I’m pondering doing some live singing performances. When I was about 18 I did a few different live performances with a couple of different bands, so this is not uncommon ground. I’ve also had a love affair with karaoke on Cruise Ships. Plus, I sang with the Piano Bar singer on our first cruise, a number of times. That is definitely a highlight of my singing career. So anyway, long story short, I’m going to put a lot more effort into practice now.

While I was listening to the playbacks of my recordings, I inked five Puddles I had drawn over the last couple of weeks. I wish I had of done more work on that but it is what it is. I’ll get caught up with it eventually.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him watching some bats outside the living room window. It’s International Bat Appreciation Day. Arthur does appreciate them!

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him at home (because of the Covid 19 lockdown.) Douglas dog decided to go for a quick walk around town. We find him visiting the Record Store for National Record Store Day. The store was closed though (because of the Covid 19 lockdown.)

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him playing with Douglas dog in the backyard to celebrate Canine Fitness Month. Arthur bought Douglas some fun obstacle course items and a frisbee. Douglas had a lot of fun and a lot of exercise.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him and Douglas dog on a video chat with Rosie. It’s National Look Alike Day and they both wanted to look like Rosie, so they’re all wearing matching hair bows. Rosie misses spending time with them.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him pretending to work in a library for National Library Workers Day. He really wanted to go to the local library but they’re closed at the moment. Douglas dog is still exhausted from the workout a couple of days ago.

I felt like I was on the go all day but it was just a normal day. I Frenched. I art-ed. I house-worked. I did more today than I have been doing, so I will call today a win.

It’s the start of the week, so that means a new Happy List. I’m still determined to actually do everything on the last one. So let’s try again!!

  1. Do more than 7 Puddles this week
  2. Start knitting a beanie
  3. Finish knitting hubbys gloves
  4. Nap/rest at least 2 hours every day
  5. Workout 2 times
  6. Meditate 3 times
  7. Watercolour paint
  8. Find some new, low carb recipes
  9. Use ‘Jazzas Arty Games’
  10. Smile for 10 minutes, for no reason, 5 days

I hope today’s post finds you in good health and good spirits. If no one has asked you lately; How are you going? Are you coping with the Covid crisis okay? Take care of yourself. Stay safe, stay creative and stay at home (until you’re told you can go out!)

Tilly

Day 393 – Day 394

Day 393 – 30 April 2020

Today came and went quickly and there is nothing more to tell.

Day 394 – 1 May 2020

It was sooooo cold last night. So happy I can finally say that. I listened to a healing meditation as I drifted off. I had a solid sleep but it wasn’t long enough. Better is better though, so I can’t complain.

My day started about 3 minutes before hubby buzzed off to work. I pretty quickly got to Puddling after I finished a coffee, wrapped myself in a robe and dived under a cosy fluffy blanket. I drew, inked and coloured three Puddles today and then it was 4 pm. I finished the day with some French.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him relaxing by the pool with a beer for National Beer Day. Douglas dog wanted one last swim before Winter arrived.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him and Douglas dog dressed up as their favourite animal you might find at the zoo for National Zoo Lovers Day. With the lockdown in full swing, they weren’t able to go to the Zoo.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him and Douglas dog decorating some yummy pink cupcakes for National Unicorn Day. They put on their magical unicorn horns and video called Rosie. They sure do miss spending time with Rosie.

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I really want to make excuses for my lack of trying over the last two days but I’m just lacking discipline (again!). Can I do better? Yes. Will I do better tomorrow? I hope so. I mean, YES!

If your day hasn’t been the way you wanted, take a deep breath, roll up your sleeves and get prepared to tackle whatever it is tomorrow. You’re strong and you can achieve anything you set your mind to. Stay creative, stay safe and stay at home. Take care.

Tilly

PS: After I wrote the post I did housework until hubby got home. I feel a little bit better about my day. Go me!!

Day 386

I was feeling rather upset when I went to bed and wifey had some things to take care of so she couldn’t read to me. Luckily I had emotionally exhausted myself and I fell asleep quickly. I woke at a normal time and didn’t remember my dreams. That was a strange feeling. Homer gave me lots of snuggles n kisses and kept pretty close to me all morning, like he was protecting me.

I found it a little hard to bounce into life and settled for watching Youtube videos for most of the morning. By about 11 am I forced myself to get up to ink and colour the Puddles that I had drawn yesterday. I had a big goal of more than 10…and I got 3 done. Something is better than nothing. I haven’t drawn any more today either. Naughty me.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him getting the house all cleaned up because it is National Cleaning Week. Arthur took the sofa pillows outside to be cleaned. That didn’t stop Douglas dog from curling up on the sofa.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him making a mess in his freshly cleaned living room. Arthur has Rosie on video chat and he’s showing her the message he drew on the wall for her. He added lots of scribbles because it’s National Scribble Day.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him and Douglas dog in the backyard roasting some marshmallows for Something on a Stick Day. Douglas dog was also something on a stick. He wouldn’t let go of the new big stick that he found.

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I finished the day with French and Norwegian. I had to refresh some of the topics I’d previously learned in Norwegian and they went really well. I still have a bit of trouble knowing; hvem, hva, hvor, but I am glad I spelled them right. With French I was just doing the ‘city 2’ lessons. It taught me to say; Cette ville est dangereux. This is something I hope I never have to say outside of lessons.

I’m not really getting through my Happy List as quickly or efficiently as I would have liked but at least I am making progress. I am on track for finishing my Puddles goal. I’ve been resting, meditating and smiling. I haven’t really been at my computer for working on the other things.

I hope that your week is headed in the direction you want it to go. If you’re struggling, I’m sorry that you have to struggle and know that there is a complete stranger (me) who thinks you’re fantastic and strong. You got this. Be kind. Stay safe and stay at home.

Tilly

Day 359 – 367

Happy One Year Blogiversary to me. Thanks to everyone who has followed my journey so far, stuck with me through the hard times and offered advice, feedback, well wishes and likes. I know I am not alone in my struggles and the support I’ve had over the last year is priceless. I hope you will continue following my journey through the upcoming years.

Day 359 – 27 March 2020

I felt okay when I woke up but didn’t really want to push myself too hard. I thought I’d start the day with some casual WoW playing. 13 hours later I logged off and went to bed. I got totally consumed levelling a new character. WoW was doing double levelling experience so it was very quick. It wasn’t really the best way to spend the day but it was enjoyable and as I always say; you have to enjoy the little things.

Day 360 – 28 March 2020

I ended up waking up around lunchtime. Getting extra sleep at the moment is high on my to do list. I’m still not feeling great and my heart rate is still being more erratic than I’m comfortable with. I know I should probably go to see a doctor but there are a couple of things that are really stopping me.

Obviously the first hurdle to visiting a doctor is my agoraphobia. (This is so hard for me to talk about.) I haven’t left the house in over two years, possibly three. Before that I had mostly stayed in for about four or five years.

Four years ago, when my dad was dying from cancer, I came home and acted like I was normal. That was a very stressful time because not only did I have to care for someone who had abused me for 25+ years, I had to stop paying attention to how I felt or I wouldn’t have been able to leave the house.

Once my father passed away, I didn’t leave the house much after that. I went to the airport a couple of times to pick up wifey, a Christmas shopping trip with wifey and that’s about it. Each event felt more and more stressful.

I am worried that something bad will happen to me if I leave the house. I’m worried (even though hubby is a pretty good driver) that I’ll end up in a car accident. I’m worried a stranger will be mean, hurtful or violent towards me. I’m worried something bad will happen to the house if I’m not there. Worry, anxiety and stress are overwhelming and that’s just thinking about leaving. The reality of leaving is so much worse.

The second obstacle is my fear of people. I’ve spent a lot of my life being judged, being told I’m not good enough, being told that I am doing everything wrong. Having a stranger (Doctor) doing that to me is too overwhelming. I know I will shut down and still not do what I have to.

The third obstacle is the Covid-19 virus. While this is such an issue, I don’t want to go to a Doctors office or the hospital. I don’t want to put myself at risk of catching it. My immune system doesn’t handle sickness and especially not one of this magnitude.

Wow, I wasn’t really expecting all that to come out. I was just going to talk about my levelling for another day in WoW. With my levelling obsession in full swing, I spent the rest of the day levelling my character to max and getting her geared enough for Sunday mythics.

There wasn’t time at the end of the day to do a post so I figured I would get caught up (again) on Sunday.

Day 361 – 29 March 2020

My mythical Sunday started earlier than normal, which I was happy about. I’ve been playing WoW with a healer friend for 3 years and it has been enjoyable for the most part. We jumped straight into a hard dungeon and I got super stressed, super quickly. BAM!!! The same feeling from two weeks prior started again. My head started feeling light, my heart rate accelerated and I just felt off. After two easier dungeons I had to call it a day and get back in bed.

I spent the day in bed and of course there was no chance of an update.

Day 362 – 30 March 2020

I spent Monday in bed. I just didn’t want to push myself at all. I continued my diet of Youtube videos and naps. When it was time to sleep, I tried a Guided Healing Meditation; Cell and Nerve Healing. I was able to get through it without it causing any weird feelings and it got my heart rate down to a healthy rate after about 16 minutes. The guide goes for 47 minutes.

Day 363 – 31 March 2020

It was another uneventful rest day. I binged on Youtube videos and only got up when hubby was home. It was a long day in bed because hubby had to do overtime again. We’re very thankful he’s been getting a little extra work during a time when so many people are unable to work.

During one of my naps I had some pretty bad dreams about my dad. I just couldn’t shake the bad feels after that. There has been a string of bad dreams over the last few days. Not my usual weather dreams either. I would take a tornado dream over the ones I’ve been having any day.

The highlight of the day was my friend, The Pally, getting in touch. He’s been busy working hard and we’d gone a few weeks without talking. I sometimes feel like our friendship is a burden on him. While I’m always there to listen and support him however I can, I don’t feel like I have much to offer. Most of the time I don’t understand why anyone likes me.

Day 364 – 1 April 2020

It was another day mostly in bed. Hubby had to finish off the overtime from the previous night, so he was home late-ish again. Even though I’ve still been able to chat with wifey on Discord, it’s been crazy lonely with hubby getting home so late. I’m thankful that I have two people who love me and I was even more thankful that my friend, The Pally, got in touch with me again.

Day 365 – 2 April 2020

There wasn’t much to today but I decided to work on a Puddles. I drew up about six days worth of cells, grabbed my supplies and worked from bed. It almost feels like the universe decided I wasn’t isolated enough and just wanted me to share the struggles of everyone else. It worked. I feel more isolated and I’m definitely struggling more. Not having my art, language learning or even simple comments from wonderful people from all over the globe has kind of hit me hard.

Puddles will be playing catch up for a while. We’re going back a few weeks for today’s.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him, Rosie and Douglas dog celebrating St Patrick’s Day. Arthur was waiting for Rosie in a pot of gold (chocolate) coins at the end of a rainbow. Rosie served up some frothy green drinks. Even though they couldn’t go out, they had fun celebrating at home.

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Day 366 – 3 April 2020

The first thing I did was grabbed my Puddles sketch book and tried to mentally plan out a few to draw. I was successful. In between napping and Youtube I managed to get three drawn. It was a nice day and I was glad to get out of bed when hubby got him. I stayed as relaxed as I could and we had a lot of laughs watching photo slideshows on Youtube about how people are dealing with the Covid-19 crisis. You can check them out on the DAILY HUMOR channel.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him celebrating National Button Week in the most peculiar way. He found inspiration in a song written by Sia. The song is called Buttons. He had a lot of fun recreating scenes from the video clip.

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Day 367 – 4 April 2020

Today has been a hard day. I’m not sure if it’s because I really wanted to get an update done, get a bunch of Puddles finished or because it’s officially my one year blogiversary and I don’t think it’s been an overly successful year. I’ve felt pretty stressed all day which is the opposite of what I am trying to do at the moment.

Because of the extra stress I’ve been feeling today I haven’t really done much. I spent the morning on Youtube, followed by a sweet little nap. In the afternoon I got up to work on this update and colouring the Puddles. It took me a good 6 hours to get it all done.

The weekend starts for hubby tomorrow, so I will take another two days of resting without guilt. On Tuesday I am going to try harder to get back into a normal routine. I may still need more break times than I’d like but I know that if I can start working on my goals again, it will at least improve my mental health.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him at a local farm feeding some chickens on Poultry Day.

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If you’ve read this whole post, you are my hero! Thank you. I hope you are keeping healthy, entertained and happy during the Covid-19 crisis. I know how hard it is and I’m sending you all the love and light I can. Stay safe.

Tilly

Day 358

WordPress has had a makeover. How fresh in a time of crisis. I wish I could have a makeover. I am feeling terrible. I woke just after hubby but stayed in bed. By about 9 am I was feeling ready to go back to sleep. I don’t remember when I went back to sleep but I did.

I woke in the afternoon and really wanted to stay in bed. I should have. I got up and spent a few hours slowly working on a Puddles. It was good in theory but the colour process…oh the colour process. I guess I just didn’t think it through well enough and with all the detail of the bamboo it didn’t come out as clean as I would have liked. I just don’t like it. Let’s not talk about it.

So with the Arthur Puddles cartoon, as you have probably picked up, they are to celebrate a National or International Day. Even though I had a whole lot of time off, I am going to continue with the same theme and still draw the days that have passed. I have been a bit conflicted if I should draw Arthur social distancing and self isolating. He’s a penguin (and a cartoon) so technically he doesn’t really need to. As a sign of solidarity for the crisis (and for future generations that may stumble upon the cartoon) I thought it might be interesting transferring his world to his house. With all that said, I’ll probably keep drawing him doing outside things until the time that Australia went into a semi lock down on the 24th.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him visiting a Giant Panda for National Panda Day to find out if he’s doing okay. Arthur is very caring.

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I am defiantly unhappy today but it is what it is. I very much have things to be thankful for and, I still am. I’m just unhappy. Fingers crossed I’ll get a good sleep tonight.

Oh, you also may have noticed in my update yesterday (or just in the tags for the concise version) that I haven’t mentioned meditation. I haven’t been able to do it. I don’t know why either. I have tried a couple of times but it’s made me feel sick, almost like sea-sick? Maybe not. Not sure I’ve been sea-sick. Whatever it is, it just hasn’t worked for me. Last night I tried to just picture one of the meditation guides I used to listen to and I fell asleep pretty quick. I miss it. That’s not the only thing I’m missing at the moment.

I hope that you are staying happy and healthy. Enjoy the little things because that’s all we have right now. (Takes own advice!)

Tilly

Day 335

I got to bed before midnight last night. Woo hoo!! My phone was almost flat again, so I chose a short meditation guide ; Pain Relief & Healing GUIDED MEDITATION “The Cleansing Pool”. It’s one of my favourites so I definitely didn’t feel like I was missing out. Homer woke me up about 6 minutes before hubby’s alarm would have gone off. It was a pretty good sleep.

I started the day well. Before hubby had gone to work, I’d done French and Norwegian. Soon as he had gone, I worked out and I’m still feeling it. It took me every second of 30 minutes to finish the workout. It’s something I enjoy while I’m doing it but I’m back to struggling through it. Good times.

Once that was done, I was feeling pretty good that I’d started my day well. I dived into Puddles and got that done in about 2 1/2 hours. If I could get the whole process under 2 hours I’d be much happier. This project wasn’t supposed to take up so much of my days.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him celebrating World Wildlife Day with a bunch of his friend. They took a selfie to commemorate the day.

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The afternoon was… disappointing. This bout of depression has really dug its heels in. I haven’t really experienced anything like this for a couple of years. The thing that really set me off today was an ad on Youtube. I had some Youtube videos playing while I was working out which were interrupted by ads. I would normally skip them but I was nowhere near the mouse so I had to watch them.

There was an ad made by ‘Huggies’ about how hard it is parenting in 2020 when everyone is judging you. There were lots of mothers sharing how they felt they weren’t doing a good enough job. Near the end of the ad their kids and partners were interviewed and said how amazing the mums actually are.

Being a parent was the only thing I ever wanted and it’s the one thing that I will never have. That hurt is way too painful today. Even writing about it hours after it happened and I can’t stop the flood of tears. I guess my loneliness is reaching all new levels of lone.

I tired to re-focus my day by trying to find something on Youtube for watercolour practice. I watched about an hour of videos but my indecisiveness was becoming overwhelming so I gave up on the day and went to bed.

Tomorrow is another day and I can only hope that it goes smoother. I hope your day has brought you nothing but happiness. Good luck with all things on your to-do list this week. Take care.

Tilly

Day 326

I listened to a new meditation guide by The Honest Guys; GUIDED SLEEP MEDITATION The Cave of Serenity. Earth Grounding. It definitely helped my sleep and I got a nice 7 hours. I woke filled with dread though because I knew the day would have me doing something I didn’t want to.

I sipped a cup of coffee and jumped straight into practising languages. Hubby was awake so I let him listen to the Norwegian practice. He had fun picking up a few words. We’ve been fans of the Norwegian comedy duo, Ylvis, for years so we’ve often talked about learning.

Once 10.30 am rolled around I knew it was time for what I’d been dreading. I logged on to WoW to do dungeons with my friend. I had last Sunday off because I told him I was ‘sick’. So he asked how I was feeling and I answered honestly; I didn’t feel that good still. Then he asked if I had the flu. I didn’t know how to reply. I wasn’t ‘sick’ sick, I’ve just been feeling really mentally unwell and finding it hard to be around people… very hard. I was so ashamed of the real answer but I told him anyway.

Then we started the day as normal and did the dungeons. For the whole day I felt so ashamed that I was depressed. Why would I even tell someone that? It’s hard enough living with depression but feeling like I can’t talk about it because I’m ashamed….doesn’t help. This is also why I have trouble having friends. I feel like I’m doing my best at pushing the only friend I have away too. Ugh!!

That all wrapped up around 2 pm and it was time to Puddles. That was the only art-ing I managed. After I had done that, I jumped into bed for a nap to try and reset my brain. I’m not sure it did that. If anything, it gave me more alone time to think before I dozed off. Not helpful.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him taking a break from the holiday celebrations and catching up on his laundry. Douglas dog didn’t take the day off and dived into the bag of dog biscuits to celebrate International Dog Biscuit Appreciation Day. What a mouthful!!

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I hope you have a wonderful weekend. Enjoy the little things.

Tilly

Day 325

I got into bed a little late last night and did; Guided Meditation 1 Hour “The Healing Temple.”  It’s probably not my finest idea doing a 1 hour guide when I go to bed late. When it ended, I checked the time and it was just after 2 am. I fell asleep and woke just before 7 am because Homer dog wanted to go out. I guess I’m just going through one of those periods where I don’t get a lot of sleep.

Soon as hubby buzzed off to work, I started a day of art-ing. I worked on two watercolour paintings at the same time, so I would give each proper time to dry. I’m pretty sure I still didn’t do that. Sometimes my trying to ‘fix’ something, ends up being an even bigger headache because I don’t wait. I have no patience. UGH!!

Both of the paintings are from the same Youtube channel; Paint with DAVID. The first one I started was a winter landscape. I very loosely followed the tutorial and made some changes to the foreground because, to me, it looked like it should be water. I’m really enjoying these winter scenes.

The second one was a simple and easy landscape. Again, I loosely followed the guide and made some colour changes. I also couldn’t quiet get what the ‘road/path’ was doing and made a huge mess. It would seem that I just like doing paintings with wooden fences in them at the moment.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him in the park with Rosie and Douglas dog. They’re going for a walk to celebrate Walking the Dog day. Douglas tried to bury his bone. It was a colourful day.

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By the time all the art-ing was done, all I wanted was a nap. So that’s what I did. While I feel inspired right now, the weekend starts for us tomorrow and I have to do mythics in WoW, so I can’t imagine this feeling will last. I wish all things would just be right in my world again.

I finished the day with French and Norwegian. I had some trouble with the last lot of words I learned in French. I should have spent more time practising those when I learned them. I’m sure I’ll get them eventually. My Norwegian practice was pretty good. I sometimes get confused with what word should come first. For example; Hun heter Astrid. I often mix up the first two words.

I hope your weekend is filled with smiles, fun, relaxing, friends and everything that your heart desires. If that’s not something I can have, it’s something I hope for you.

Tilly

Day 322

I listened to Pain Relief & Healing GUIDED MEDITATION “The Cleansing Pool for my meditation last night. It wasn’t a good night’s sleep. I ended up getting about 4 1/2 hours sleep. I was pretty zombie all day.

I started the day with French and Norwegian. It was a good practice for both. Then I spent most of the day working on Puddles. For characters I’ve now been drawing for 50 days, today was really hard work. I just couldn’t get anything right. While I spent a fair amount of time Puddles procrastinating, I sang. I feel too critical of myself at the moment to get a recording I like.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him at the local Ice Cream Shop sharing a big bowl of mint chocolate ice cream with Douglas dog. Even though it was Chocolate Mint Day all Arthur could think about was Rosie.

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There’s not much more to tell.

I hope your day is filled with sunshine, smiles and a big bowl of ice cream. (If you’re into it.) Take care.

Tilly

Day 321

Last night I listened to; Sleep Hypnosis for Pain Management with Relaxing Binaural Music. It wasn’t technically meditation but I’m always interested in finding new pain management for my chronic pain. I’m not sure if it was just the simple suggestion of being hypnotised but when it got to that part (after far too much talking and a mini history lesson) I couldn’t feel the pain. I fell asleep sometime during it all and when it ended, the pain returned and I woke up. It was an interesting experience. I’ll return to meditating tonight so I can get a good sleep. I’m feeling mentally exhausted.

I have been struggling with my mental health over the last few weeks. My inner dialogue is screaming that no one cares about me. Which is obviously untrue. There are a number of people who care about me but that hasn’t stopped the noise. I feel hopeless and like everything I’m trying to do is a waste of time. I frequently find myself saying things like ‘it would just be better if I was dead.’ It’s a dark place. One that I have dealt with many, many times. I will deal with it again. It’s just so hard.

Let’s move on to anything else!! I started the day with a workout! A workout!!!! It was so hot and humid and I knew it would be a struggle. I pushed through. My 30 minute workout actually took 30 minutes.

For my art-ing I Puddled and I wrote a paragraph length story. I had stumbled upon The Sunday Whirl – Wordle 443. It’s a list of words that you put in a story. I’ve seen people doing these for some time now and finally decided to participate. The prompt list can be found here.


Anna had taken a wrong TURN and now she was LOST. She had driven too FAR down an old dirt road and it had LEFT her feeling uneasy. The lights of the city LIMIT were now a distant memory. Anna pulled the car over to the SIDE of the road and got out. This was the wrong MOVE. An unnerving man SLYLY emerged from the thick scrub. The man held an axe by his side that dripped with BLOOD. He gasped for AIR. “I didn’t do it!” he stammered, trying to put her at EASE before collapsing to the ground. Anna didn’t know how to FEEL. Was she in danger or was he?


In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him at a wine tasting with Rosie for National Drink Wine Day. It was a special day. They held hands for the first time.

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After the Puddles, I did French and Norwegian practice. I will start a new topic in French next week because I think it’s been a few weeks since my last one. I won’t progress as quickly with Norwegian though. I am remembering a few more words like; god = good, morgen = morning, kveld = evening, katt – cat, barn = children, heter = name, hva = what, velkommen = welcome, en mann = a man. Those are the ones that first spring to mind. Not bad for a couple of days.

In the afternoon I knew I should attempt a watercolour but the idea of being bad at it was giving me such intense anxiety I had to take a nap. When I woke up, Homer dog gave me lots of snuggles. He always knows when I’m not feeling my best. It helped.

As I sat down to write a post we could hear a storm in the distance. Hubby (a complete weather nerd) got on his weather app to see what was up. There was a huge storm front headed our way. It was providing quiet the light show in the distance and after about 15 minutes of recording, I finally got a great shot. It’s only a few seconds long and I slowed the video down so you could actually see it. Wow!!! The storm barely hit us. It went either side of our house and out to see. There was only one crack of thunder that sounded like it was above us.

I am looking forward to having a better day tomorrow. I hope that your day is filled with all the things that make you happy. Enjoy the little things.

Tilly