There isn’t much to report today. I woke up late and started morning things even later. I did my workout hard and fast and really pushed myself. I think five days of doing that has made my body tired. After I was done working out, I felt fatigued. Not just tired or worn out but exhausted. The littlest things felt like the most amount of work. Even breathing felt hard. Pain has also been a factor the last few days.
I spent a good part of the day in bed, resting and sleeping. Tonight I’m still in a lot of pain and feeling pretty worn out. Luckily the weekend is here and tomorrow is a rest day. It’ll be feet up most of the day.
I did about 45 minutes of French today. I’ve really been enjoying it. Every now and then I say a few French things to wifey. Our goal is to be able to have a conversation when she gets back home with us. I sure do hope a cat, a dog and a horse all walk by eating an orange because THAT is something I could say.
I started a new quick knitting project. It’s making a toy bunny out of a square of garter stitch. I’ve completed the square but haven’t shaped or stuffed it yet. Once it’s done, I’m going to give it to my puppy (10 year old puppy), Homer. He has a habit of pulling soft toys apart but hopefully this will be the one he doesn’t want to rip the stuffing from. I will get pictures before he gets his fluffy face onto it.
I hope everyone is having a magical weekend filled with unicorn rainbows and sugar-dipped faeries…. or you know, whatever good stuff you’re up to.
I went to bed early last night and woke up a little on the early side but it was nice to see hubby before he left for work. He had an early start. I sat about trying to get some energy for morning things. By 8.30 am I had no more energy but I knew I had to at least get a workout done.
I worked out. It was hard. I was a lot slower than I have been and things were aching that don’t normally ache. I have been feeling extra fatigued the last few days and it seems to be getting worse.
Once the workout was done and wifey was e-tucked into bed, I decided to follow. I climbed into bed mid morning and was there until the afternoon. I woke to feel… tired. So very tired.
I’m going to have to spend a few days getting more rest. My body is just so tired and full of aches. I feel like I’m letting myself down by not filling my days with creative things and learning but I just need rest.
Apart from rest, I got a handful of dishes washed, did my French revision and wrote this post. Another early night ahead.
I had the worst sleep that I’ve had in a very long time. It felt like I spent more time awake then asleep. The pain in my legs was insane. By morning I was a grumpy, crying heap. I tried to soak it away in a hot shower but it didn’t help much.
By mid morning I knew that I would just have to work out, so I did. I got through both workouts, hard and fast. I can feel a nice workout ache in my arms and shoulders.
I have failed on a creative level again. The closest I got to creative was speaking to someone who is into drawing and arts and crafts. Although it was nice having conversation (I know, a real human conversation!! Craziness) about knitting and drawing. She was most encouraging. I got to see a drawing she did when she first started and then an updated version she did recently. It’s amazing to see how much someone can grow when they’re dedicated.
I’m glad the photo challenge is a week event because I did not get a photo with ‘shadows’ today. When I look around my home and yard, I don’t find a lot to get creative with. Probably not my houses fault, just my under developed creative muscle.
Tomorrow is another day for me to achieve in. Good luck to all those with unfinished projects. Tomorrow is your day!!!
Here’s Day 8 of the writing challenge. If you’d like to see the full challenge details, click here. All 30 days will be posted here.
Day 8:Share something you struggle with
Discipline. I know that I cannot rely on being motivated or inspired. Those are feelings that come and go. Discipline is knowing you have a job to do and getting it done, no matter what the feels. This is my daily struggle.
It’s almost one month since I started this journey. In some ways I’m happy with the progress I’m making, in other ways, I’m disappointed at myself for not being more determined.
I feel like I’ve got a great morning routine and I get a lot done. I work out, get housework done and usually still manage to fit a little something creative in there too.
Once the afternoon comes, so does a very flat mood. I’m really not sure why I find it so hard to keep doing things. It is going to take a lot of effort to change these habits. Sometimes it feels like I don’t have the mental energy for it but I know I have to keep pushing.
Today, for example, I spent all afternoon wanting to vacuum but worried it would make my pain feel worse. That made me feel like I was letting myself down, letting hubby down, letting wifey down (even if she’s in the US) and then I just felt flat.
I think in the afternoons I should try adding some meditation and most definitely some arts and crafts, when the stuff finally gets here. Hopefully a creative release will help get the smiles flowing.