Before I update on the days events, I need to give a quick backstory on the house I’m living in.
My parents bought the house in the late 70s. It’s a small three bedroom house, with one bathroom and a medium sized back yard and front yard with no gardens. I inherited the house three years ago, when my dad passed away, after a short battle with cancer. My mum passed away a few months after my 21st birthday.
I’ve found it hard to pack up all of my parents stuff. This is all I have left of my family and I’m very attached to things. A lot of the things I feel attached to don’t have any real value and I still can’t box them up.
In some ways, I don’t want to change things but on the other hand I know I need to move forward and finally make this place my own. I plan on living here or at least, keeping this house forever.
I’ve had my own stuff sitting in boxes for well over a year because there really isn’t any room to put it. So today, I actually got some stuff organised and cleaned out. It feels 100 times less cluttered in here already.
Through the coming week I’ll pack up some more stuff to send to the local thrift store, continue the spring cleaning and unpack a little more. I’ll also start working on a mood board for renovations. I’ve had lots of great ideas for many years, just need to turn them into something I can see.
It’s been a good day. I bet I’ll have another one of those tomorrow. It’s time to focus on things that really matter.
Not much to report today. It’s the weekend. I’ve had a long standing gaming day and that won’t be changing any time soon. So it was a relaxed and fun sort of day.
Although it’s Monday tomorrow, it’s still the weekend for me. We have a Sunday and Monday weekend in this house. Lots to get done around the house though, so it should be a busy and productive day.
Good days are coming.
In some ways today was a better day, in other ways, it really wasn’t. I started out motivated and determined to get the things done that I had mentioned in yesterdays post.
It wasn’t until mid afternoon, when the humidity had risen, that I started to feel emotionally flat and no longer desired to do the things I knew I should be doing. Maybe I just needed to drink more water?
I did add some goals to The 40 List. I made a weekly schedule, that I’ll start tomorrow. I’ve almost got the social media pages sorted, kinda.
I don’t feel like I’m making much ground yet but as I’ve said for a long time now; ‘Something is more than nothing.’
Tomorrow is another day. A day I’m looking forward to.
I woke up feeling tired and was very quickly discouraged. I have a long history with depression and any little thing can set it off. I get into a head space where I feel like things don’t matter, like I don’t matter.
Knowing I’m like this and knowing I can’t just flip a switch to feel better, I need a schedule. Motivation is fickle, feelings are unreliable and neither will help me be who I need to be.
My goals for tomorrow are:
1. Make a daily schedule.
2. Write at least 10 things I want to achieve on The 40 List.
3. Create social media pages.
It’s a slow start but I’m not giving up.
I first thought of this life changing plan, 2 years ago. I was 4 years away from 40 and I knew it was the time to make some big lifestyle changes. I have talked myself in and out of this plan ever since. I’ve been hard on myself and hard to myself.
So, it’s now 2 years later and I’m finally starting my journey. The goal is to make 40 life changes that will improve my life, before I hit 40. I will keep a daily diary of the journey.
Today started different to most. I slept in. Then, as with most days, I was feeling unmotivated. I didn’t do much and I even put off starting this blog. I have felt reluctant to start because I was afraid I would give up or fail. The only fail would have been not starting.
There is so much to learn, so much to share and so much more to come.
Thanks for joining my journey. Forever starts today.