Day 388 – Day 391

Day 388 – 25 April 2020

I got to sleep late. This has become a common thread again because I simply don’t want to sleep. I know I need the rest but the idea of being in bed, in the dark with my thoughts has been overwhelming. While I’m trying not to dwell on the events of the week I’m still missing someone that I just shouldn’t be anymore.

I tried to distract myself by making a return to the virtual world; Secondlife. This was where wifey and I met. I hadn’t played for about 2 years but I thought it would be something different and at the very least, I could play dress ups with my avatar. (It’s like I’m 8 years old again with one great barbie and 100s of outfits and dream houses!!)

I was a bit nervous about getting back in there because I’d left suddenly and without explanation. I knew I had let people down (or at least that’s how I felt) and I wasn’t sure anyone that I used to know would even want to talk to me again. On my second day of logging in I was greeted with a very excited message from a friend. It made my day. Not only did someone miss me but they were actually happy that I was back…two years later.

I have really needed the distraction but I know I should be using some of my angst fuel to be catching up on Puddles, getting a face full of different languages or to make happy little trees with my paint brush. Try, try and try again. That’s all I can do.

Day 389 – 26 April 2020

Another restless nights sleep meant I crawled out of bed around 11 am. I enjoyed that one night where I didn’t dream at all. It was another lazy day and by the end of it, I felt guilty. I tried to tell myself all day that I was really just relaxing but I’ve definitely been a bit of a procrastination monster lately.

The highlight of the day was eating a Pesto Grilled Chicken burger with cream cheese and baby spinach. Plus a side of appleslaw. This was something we came up with when we were out of cabbage. In place of cabbage, we use apple. It’s a delicious mix of apple, carrot, onion, grated cheese and coleslaw dressing.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him in a fort with Douglas dog and they are reading some books by Dr Seuss for International Children’s Book Day.

Day 390 – 27 April 2020

It was the last day of the weekend and I soaked in every last part of it…while doing nothing else. It was an enjoyable day but I am now trying to mentally prepare for a new and a more productive week.

Last week I set a creative and self care heavy Happy List.
The things I got done…
– I did 7 Puddles
– I meditated more than 3 times
– I found some low carb recipes and we’ve already tried them
– Downloaded Jazza’s Arty Games
– Smiled for no reason

Things I didn’t do…
– Knitting
– Workout
– Watercolour Paint

Keto Frappuccino Slice

I am repeating the Happy List this week.

  1. Do more than 7 Puddles this week
  2. Start knitting a beanie
  3. Finish knitting one of hubby’s gloves
  4. Nap/rest at least 2 hours every day
  5. Workout 2 times
  6. Meditate 3 times
  7. Watercolour paint
  8. Find some new, low carb recipes
  9. Use ‘Jazzas Arty Games’ to make any type of art
  10. Smile for 10 minutes, for no reason, 5 days

Three weeks into the gratefulness project; ‘It Made Me Smile’. I haven’t been a bundle of smiles this week. I’m looking forward to an easy week of smiles.

27 April 2020: When I heard there were only two new cases of Covid-19 in NSW overnight.

26 April 2020: When I reconnected with another friend from 2 years ago. He reminded me that being quirky is a good thing.

25 April 2020: When someone I hadn’t spoken to for 2 years was incredibly excited to chat with me again. It made me feel good that I had such a positive impact on someone.

24 April 2020: When I watched the #leftoverchallenge video that was created by the ‘You Suck at Cooking’ channel. I want a bag of wispy crusticles.

23 April 2020: When I deided to smile for no reason. I just didn’t muster up a smile in more conventional ways.

22 April 2020: When I read and replied to the comments left on my blog. It’s so nice to know that there are good, caring and kind people out there who are willing to help, encourage and support a complete stranger.

21 April 2020: Even though nothing in me wanted to smile and I was sure nothing could make me smile, wifey read Johnathan Livingston Seagull to me and I smiled.


In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him and Douglas dog in the backyard looking for a rainbow on National Find a Rainbow Day. Douglas found a bone and Arthur found the rainbow he had left in the garden after St Patrick’s Day. They had fun in the sun.

Day 391 – 28 April 2020

It was another bad nights sleep. I know it’ll right itself eventually but this in between time is really hard on me. I listened to a hypnosis pain relief guide as I was falling asleep. It helped me relax through some pain I was having but after I woke up around 3 am, I put a meditation guide for better sleep on. I think that added up to about 5 hours of guides.

When morning came I didn’t want to get up. I flirted with the idea of more sleep but it was the start of the week and I wanted to start doing things. I worked on three Puddles. I sketched, I inked, I coloured. That took longer than I wanted.

In today’s Adventures of Arthur Puddles we find him sharing a wedge of cheese with the sweet little rat that lives in the walls because it’s World Rat Day. This is the first time Arthur has been so close to a rat. They’re friends now.

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Once done with the Puddling, I got straight into French and Norwegian. The French practice was pretty good. I feel pretty confident if I was listening to someone speak French, I could pick up on what they’re saying (well at least with what I’ve learned so far) but without prompts, I would struggle to put a sentence together. I guess that’s the only problem with not having someone to have French conversations with. The same will happen with Norwegian, I’m sure. As long as I can understand movies from both countries at some point, I’ll call it a win.

I finished the day with some housework and I spent some time with wifey. I had planned on doing more art/crafting but time was not on my side.

I hope you are doing well. Stay creative, stay safe and stay inside. Take care.

Tilly

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Tilly Collins

I'm on a life changing journey to 40. There will be ups, there will be downs. I'm like a roller coaster but with more agoraphobia.

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