Day 173

I said I would post about the ups and the downs and today was a bad day. I woke up at a reasonable time, after a pretty good sleep. Everything felt fine. Nothing happened to change that but my mood took a nose dive by about 10 am.

This was going to be a day of doing things and I started by trying to unpick the knitting I’d done the other day to see if I could fix it. I felt proud that I worked out how to do that but I still couldn’t fix the project. Oh well, each time I start it’s giving me great practice at ribbing and I’m getting faster at it.

Everything from that point seems like a bit of a weird, emotional blur. I was feeling sad and every little thing started to annoy me. It wasn’t even important things, or things I can even recall hours later. I just remember sitting here, furiously twisting the tie on my robe around my finger. I’ve found doing things with my hands has helped ease anxiety but this didn’t help at all.

Hubby left to grab lunch and wifey asked me how I was. I replied in the most dramatic and emotional way possible. The next thing I know I had stormed off to the bedroom and crashed onto the sheets a sobbing mess. What had even happened???

I had exhausted myself. I spent the rest of the day trying to sleep off a bad mood that had no reason for being there in the first place. It was round 6 pm when I finally got out of bed…and with a headache.

I’m going to forget today even happened. Tomorrow I’ll get back to doing what I should and wait patiently for my box of art supplies to arrive (they’re scheduled for delivery tomorrow.)

I hope this week will be filled with the most amazing experiences, creativity and smiles for all. Take care of yourself.


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Tilly Collins

I'm on a life changing journey to 40. There will be ups, there will be downs. I'm like a roller coaster but with more agoraphobia.

7 thoughts on “Day 173”

      1. Hmmm- I’d recommend a hike- save fur the agoraphobia thing☹️. I was in a tense and foul mood yesterday but after a few minutes tromping around in the woods it just vanished.

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