Day 131

It was a short nights sleep. I guess I can be thankful for that one 9 hour sleep this week. I crawled out of bed around 6.30 am and jumped straight in the shower. Once curled up on the sofa, I sat and stared for what seemed like forever, then hubby woke up.

Hubby and I started the day with coffee and a really really bad movie; The Dancing Ninja. If you’re into really bad movies that star David Hasselhoff, then this one is for you.

With another wasted morning behind us, we hit the housework trail. I got a good bit done before I sat down to tackle today’s drawing topic; anything I want. Not today, please not today. I think I swept my creativity under the sofa and the idea of coming up with something was more than my poor little brain could handle.

I asked hubby what I should draw, his reply was, ‘whispering eye.’ If you’ve seen the movie Role Models then you would know what he was refering to and why that wasn’t going to happen.

Next I asked a friend what I should draw, his reply was; ‘Why not try something of a sci-fi fantasy nature?A magical rose floating over a vase of natural composition which is also floating in a sea of nothingness?’ All I can say to that suggestion is, I can’t even.

Lastly, (and I feel like this is the Goldilocks and the Three Bears of drawing) I asked wifey what I should draw. Her first response I won’t even share. She can be a little naughty sometimes. Then she linked me a very big page of possible things to draw. Check out 99 Insanely Smart, Easy and Cool Drawings to Pursue Now. I chose one of them.

All challenge drawings can be found here…
40 Day Drawing Challenge on Three Peas, One Pod

There isn’t much more to recount from my day. I’m still struggling with depression. The bad feels have set in for the winter and I just can’t seem to pull myself out of it. I’m not achieving as much as I want and the victories I have made seem so small and insignificant I fail to be proud of myself. It just feels like I’m running out of time and I’m going to get to 40 without even coming close to what I wanted to achieve. UGH!

A new week is tickling my heels and I need to find a huge amount of effort that I do not currently have. If you have some spare effort you could lend me, I would appreciate it.

Even though my world doesn’t feel like a very bright place at the moment, I just want to wish anyone who reads this all the light, goodness, happiness and creativity they can handle…and then a little bit more. You are amazing and you deserve it.


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Tilly Collins

I'm on a life changing journey to 40. There will be ups, there will be downs. I'm like a roller coaster but with more agoraphobia.

6 thoughts on “Day 131”

  1. I find the trickiest thing is getting started- if you can just put the pencil to paper (figuratively or literally) and not procrastinate or ruminate with self doubt inertia will set in and before u know it you have a finished piece.

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    1. That’s some great advice, thank you! xD I find it much easier to draw when I have a prompt of what to draw. I’m not trusting my own creativity. That’s something I’m going to work on, being more free with the pencil. Take care. =)

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    1. Thank you so much, Elaine. I really appreciate such insightful comment. I am going to make a big effort to keep this in mind and live in the moment. Again, thank you. This was exactly what my morning needed. ^^ Take care.

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  2. OOOH, I have been there with depression. NOT fun, and one bout, the most severe for me, lasted 9 months. Thinking about what I was not able to do didn’t help me, just being present for another damn day did… and writing daily. Love your elephant and mouse. If you are on faceboook and need to have things to draw you can join us on virtual sketchwalk — we do walks together each month, as if we are traveling, often. This month it is Disneyland.

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    1. Thanks so much for your comment. ^^ Living with depression is hard but I’m making such a big effort to ‘live in the moment’. So far so good. It’s definitely helping me to focus away from the depression too. I hope you’re having a wonderful week. =) And I’ll check out the group on Facebook. Thanks again.


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