Day 120

I woke up too early but thought it was okay to get up seeing I’d gone to bed early the night before. I was still tired but I figured I could get into my day pretty quick and have one of those high achieving days. I was wrong.

It took well over an hour to start French. Once I got started, I very quickly got distracted. My daily goal on Duolingo is to make at least 50 xp points. On a normal day I try to do over 200 points xp, which is easily done if I’m doing 30 minutes. Today I barely got past 50 points.

I had a friend ask me to play some WoW with him (and I was going to give up my normal morning activities to do it) but he got sidetracked and didn’t have time for me. At first I felt annoyed, seeing I was going to disrupt my day but that quickly faded into sadness. I guess I just felt like I wasn’t important. I always feel that way, which makes me crave affirmation….or if we’re honest,makes me needy. UGH!

I got into my workout and did it while listening to an Indie Playlist I made. The pace of the music was amazing for a regimented workout. I worked out 7 minutes faster than normal and it felt like I’d worked out twice as hard. I’m hoping to do the same thing again tomorrow.

Next I worked on today’s drawing topic; umbrella. When I first thought of this I was going to draw a winter or rainy scene with the umbrella. Then I had someone point out in Australia umbrellas are just as important in summer. The light bulb moment struck and I created a beach scene.

I know the umbrella isn’t really the focus of the picture. It was the last thing I added to the scene and was by far, the hardest thing to tackle. It took many, many attempts to get something that made sense. I love this drawing though.

All challenge drawings can be found here…
40 Day Drawing Challenge on Three Peas, One Pod

There really wasn’t much more to my day except for occasional bouts of sulking and one cosy nap that didn’t last long enough. I’m almost getting a little worried about myself. I’ve been having more naps lately and it feels like it is to avoid things. I guess I really need to refocus the arts and crafts and keep myself creatively busy til these bad feels pass.

I hope you’re having a magical day, with sweet surprises and success in everything you do.


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Tilly Collins

I'm on a life changing journey to 40. There will be ups, there will be downs. I'm like a roller coaster but with more agoraphobia.

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