I crawled out of bed at 7 am and was feeling so tired that it actually made me feel sick. I struggled through French and felt like I barely remembered any words. I know it was just the tired fog.
The tired fog lingered for most of the day. I did my workout and took 6 minutes longer than normal but at least I got it done.
I got back to the creatives with a ‘circle’ drawing for the drawing challenge. At first I wanted to draw bubbles. I started shading and erasing over and over until I realised it just wasn’t going to happen and went to Google for inspiration. I found these great little circle doodles and gave it a try. Some I copied, some I did on my own. Kinda cute.
After lunch I wrote a new Happy List. This week I’ve scaled it back a little more so I can have some down time. I’ve been go go go for over a month now and I’m finding it a bit draining, physically and mentally. A more relaxed week should get me over the 100 day hump.
A goal for this week was to nap twice. I used to nap frequently but it was mostly because I was depressed all the time and it was easier to be asleep than dealing with the things in my head. I’m not trying to hide away now, I’m just trying to allow myself the chance to relax. I napped and it was lovely.
No big plans for tomorrow. I’ll just focus on something creative.
Day 17: List your highs and lows of this past year
The highs of the last year was definitely wifey being here for Christmas, New Year and Valentines Day. Also starting my life changing journey is a bit of a high, especially because I haven’t given up. The other thing is hubby getting on board with the Happy List and meditating. It’s nice to see him set goals and achieve.
Nothing has really gone badly in the past year (thankfully!) so there aren’t many lows to note. You wouldn’t know that by the way I am though. Living with depression and suicidal thoughts constantly, without medication or help, for well over 20 years is a big struggle. It’s a long time low that I’m working on changing.